sigh

"it's like watching u're crush marrying ur best fren"

do i weep?
or do i smile?
should i be happy for u?
even just for a while.
my heart aches,
my head hurts,
i can't take it,
and my tears burst.
i wiped it away,
and kept being strong,
swollen eyes,
for a nite long.
i leaned my head to her,
a shoulder to cry on,
silenced in the air,
waiting till dawn.
nothing can be done,
except to accept fate,
nothing can ease,
this feeling of frustrate.
i screamed my lungs out,
locked myself in my room,
took the gun and put it to my head,
BANG!! i was doomed.