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Thursday, January 29, 2009

Dear God

Is this what it takes to make me see,
Is this what it takes to make me believe,
Cause honestly I can't take it anymore,
It hurts me to see her crawled up on the floor,
To see her treated like a piece of meat,
To hear her cry after every beat,
I looked away as a hand raised in the air,
Followed by a scream so loud that i cannot bare,
Why did u create men so cruel,
And just watch them break every single rule,
Dear God I'm begging you, take him away,
Let us be happy even for just one day.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


the last two post somehow compliments each other..

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Weeping Willow

Weeping willow with your tears running down,
Why do you always weep and frown,
Is it because he left you one day,
Is it because he could not stay,
On your branches he would swing,
Do you long for happiness that day would bring,
He found shelter in your shade,
You thought his laughter will not fade,
Weeping willow stop your tears,
There is something to calm your fears,
You think death has ripped you forever apart,
But i know he'll always be in your heart.

Vada Sultenfuss

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

suicide note

as i looked up to the sky, i see you looking down on me,
do you think this is a joke? cuz you're laughing at my tragedy,
you took the only friend i ever had,
you left me feeling depress and sad,
you took her far far away,
and now you expect me to pray,
right now i wonder if you really do care,
cuz you gave me this pain that i cannot bare,
sometimes i wonder if you really exist,
cuz i have this temptation that i cannot resist,
i want to end this and never look back,
i want to stop this cuz it's strength that i lack,
i locked myself in my room, thinking of ways,
for calmness and peace to finally stay,
i imagine cutting my wrist and blood pouring out,
that method is messy, that's what i've heard about,
i could hang myself eight feet from the ground,
that way would be clean and i won't make a sound,
but then i've always wanted to jump of a building,
it'll be great looking down and imagine myself flying,
either way i'll be reunited with my friend again,
for this girl is broken and i can never be mend.


a year ago

so we're in 2009 now and a year ago, i made a few resolutions.. did i keep up with 'em? hell no.. i didn't practise playing my guitar (i think i have zero hand coordination), i didn't excercise regularly (my hoola hoop is still sitting there being abandoned), nor did i eat wisely (i spent so much money on food, i can't help it).. however, i guess i did manage to study more (i got a distinction for SM, while MRA results aren't out yet but i noe i passed), and i even made new frens (tho i dun keep in touch wif 'em regularly).. owh, n i didn't update this blog as much as i wanted too... last november looked like a good start but then it went downhill.. who can u blame, i was born lazy...

so this year, i won't be putting on any high hopes for a better person or what so ever.. i juz wanna be happy and regardless how cheesy it might sound, it's all that matters.. i wish my grandmas will live happily n healthy throughout this year.. i wish my lil sis could enjoy her course at least a bit, as i enjoy mine (cuz basically, we're stuck wif it, without it being our choice).. n lastly, world peace!! seriously, reading the news nowadays are devastating.. especially with the war on Gaza going on.. it makes us thankful for the life we live here..

so whut's in for this year... i really hope i pass my last two subjects so i could finally graduate.. the idea of delaying another year really haunts me n i dun wanna end up graduating alone without my clsmates.. after i graduate, i hope it wouldn't be that hard for me to find a job.. i'm very excited to earn my own money n spend it like fireworks (got dat from natalie).. i think that's all there is for this year, in terms of things that are for sure to happen.. other than that, who knows.. i juz hope it all goes well..

World Peace