Ponders

months passed and i kept asking why,

my heart hurts as i jabbed my eye,

why wasn't i chosen, how could it be,

what was i to do to have you pick me,

i was sideline as i watch others go,

down the path i dream of, as my pain slowly grow,

they told me to forget about it but i see them dwell,

on what could be their path, as i live in hell,

practice what you preach, i was once told,

but you can't walk the walk, you wouldn't let it roll,

i hear them argue, bout equality that was promised,

i can't help but feel your sense of dishonest,

i start to question my self-worth,

i questioned my belonging on this dreadful earth,

did i not meet the expectation, were they better,

u didn't even bat your eyes at me, didn't even breathe a letter,

i curled up in my emotions, that i carelessly hid,

but they didn't noticed, not even one bit,

i guess i should've shouted at them, told them how i feel,

bout the path i wanted, bout not having a deal,

month passed by and i still wonder why,

have u never come to me and look me in the eye,

mouthed the words i long to hear,

opening the doors while they stand near,

months passed by, it was never meant to be,

for me to be there, for you to set free.