I Miss College!!

I miss having 8 hours a week classes, which means more fun time (even tho I'm just slacking), I miss studying for exams n having that little part of me dat enjoys studying.. But most of all, I miss my frens there.. Sure I'm not those ppl who have tons and tons of frens but I do get along well with those I dat I got 2 noe along the way, esp Nam Yen who I've known since we studied our foundations in KDU.. I think he was d only 1 who took all d same subject with me at dat time.. We took economics!! N how ironic is it dat whut I'm doing now have more or less sumthing to do with that.... Rite?? Hahaha

So last Friday, I took off from work a bit earlier den usual cuz we had a small gathering in OU.. Thought of going to Chillis but it was full so we switched to Italiannese.. Reached there around 8:30pm after going thru hell finding a parking space.. Good to hear from Simon again, who just got back from Kelantan.. Good 2 noe dat he finally graduated despite only getting BP, n now he's screwing future KDU students!! Hahah I miss hearing all his bullshit, dat actually made my time there more worthwhile.. Still d same guy.. I also miss sharing songs with Nam Yen.. We used to chat almost everyday on MSN n swap new music.. I remember introducing him to Justin Bieber!! Hahaha n he gave me Gaga's Eh Eh when Pokerface was the hit.. Now I dun use MSN anymore, n I barely go on9 FB, so only swap short msgs once in a while..

Pang n his girl are planning to continue their studies in the UK.. Can't recall which university they chose, but I remember how we were talking about how dodgy our Australian degree was hahah it's hard to explain our grades without the cgpa n honest cls.. Nam Yen n Cat r also planning to continue their studies, so good for them.. as for me.. i guess i'll carry on with whut i do until it is too much then i might be open to other options... but in the meantime, i just miss that part of my life so much...

Fuck off u racist

We Could Always Plan

Hopefully, I’d be able to save about 10k by d end of this year so then next year, I could buy a car.. Yeay!! Well, of course I was aiming for an accord n obviously I can’t afford it, so I might buy sumthing from perodua or proton.. U noe, cheaper cars.. My dad said he could fork in about 20k, so a car under 50k should do it.. I’ll give it some thought 1st but most probably I just might.. Will have 2 ask around about a car loan n if there’s any special rate for MBs’ staff..

Currently in Ampang, attending a cls dat my mum enjoy forcing us to attend.. Sleepy…. *yawns* hmm Brazil n Ghana lost.. Bummer for Ghana, was rooting for them.. Argentina n Germany tonight!! Rooting for Germany..

Can’t wait for my long break =D

Pixie

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enjoy!!

TRMS or BAU??

Whichever is convenient....

so my block leave was approved!! woot!! will have a long break n enjoy the World Cup with the fam.. yeayy.. Japan was eliminated (the last asian team), n Spain kicked Ronaldo's ass hahahah at least there's sumthing to rejoice about...

most ppl r on leave today.. feels so quiet here *creeking sound*

might go to Sogo this weekend.. shopping!! Sale!! so yeah.. fine dining!!

went to watch Toy Story 3 last night... was fun n a lil sad.. i remember back then when i had toys like dat.. still have a few stuffed animals (the survivors) but they're just on display with the exceptance of Mr Teddy (izads') n Baba (yayas') of which i sumtimes sleep wif =b yeah i like sleeping with them.. especially Mr Teddy.. very hugable.. i used to sleep with my penguin but the fur just ain't right.. makes me wanna sneeze so won't be getting a nice sleep then... anyway, will be watching Karate Kid wif my sis later on... free tix from Usu.. yeay!! not really sure when to watch a-team wif mohsin.. mayb sum other time..

currently watching loads of Psych episodes.. streaming rox with unifi.. but sux with megavideo.. 72mins max a shot.. so an episode a day will keep u sane..Shawn n Gus are so random.. (reminds me of sum1).. they have that likeable characteristic..

whut else.. whut else??

nothing much to do with the title ay?

draft, draft, draft yet again

laziness is invading me yet again... another draft (in my head), a serious note so not really the time to dwell on it...got unifi at home n we've been downloading movies as if our lives depends on it.. 1 selling point of it was dat downloading movies would be faster, n they weren't kidding.. 1hr for a movie, well that's a new record in this household.. so yeah, if the police decided to raid the place, i'm not quite sure whether we will ever get out of jail...

arghh busy at work? sorta.. i hate my job.. need to get a new one prompto.. sleepy sleepy... football season but haven't really watched those 2:30am matches... might wanna consider tonight as Spain will be meeting Portugal... so Go Spain!! thought of taking my block leave from 7th till 13th.. semis n finals baby!! woot!! Argentina or Brazil?? Messi or Kaka??

MRM dinner was fun... we performed, we ate, we had a blast.. Glow in the Dark was awesome (for a rookie) n the guys (aka Sam) killed it.. he was hillarious bahahah fun night indeed.. food was great, tho should've eaten more... no pix will be posted here (was there ever?).. if u're lucky, might find some at my tumblr... (need a blogspot app for bb asap)

still can't figure out how to do this report.. mayb cuz there's no redemption, but it's hard to tell.. just learnt it yesterday n with no practise, i'm not sure if it's right.. might just leave it as it is n pick it up back tomorrow..

Movie night with my sisters n my mum... papa won't be joining us as usual (i think he's alergic to d cinema) hahaha kidding.. Toy Story 3 tonight!!! woot!! i think i'm gonna cry..

i miss u Ducky, wherever u r....

Quickie

too many draft here n not even one is completed... dun really have time to blog away... so just a quickie here...

World Cup is here!!! rooting for France but they currently sux.. tied the first match n lost to Mexico yesterday.... next up, they're facing South Africa.. n being at home ground, not sure how that'll turn out to be.. please win at least once!!! u guyz were in the finals the last time.... dun't u remeber?? headbutt?? haishh...

nevertheless... while not watching all matches, i'm enjoying the games at the moment... frustrating game from spain d other day.... argentina seems to be having a good one...

busy with work... think about giving 1 year max here then might take off... not really sumthing i wanna do for a living...

gtg now... hope to c u soon... toodles..

Wishfull Thinking

i left a note on my bed, the only way of explaining my intentions.. i'll never have the guts to say it to their face, so a written note would do.. after making sure that my bags were packed, i took a last look at my bedroom, for i noe that the next time i lay eyes on it, would be for a long time.. the cab was waiting outside, so i hurriedly went down n locked the door.. as i hopped on tha cab, i thought to myself, how things would change from now on.. i've made a drastic decision for once in my life that i noe will have a huge impact on several ppl especially my family.. on the way to the airport, i thought back on how i've come to make this decision.. it doesn't seem like me at all, but whut i do for a living doesn't quite satisfy me the way i hope my life would be.. i go on and on for days and weeks without really thinking much about whut i do.. so when news broke about the attack, and seeing ppl forwarding msgs or changing their profile pics at fb, i thought, that ain't gonna do nothing for them.. condemning actions are easy, i can say things, but to walk the talk is tough.. suddenly, i felt the urge to do sumthing productive.. something that i noe would make me happy by helping others.. only God noes how much i've been thinking about it but i always contemplate that without money, the only thing i could offer is energy and i havn't really done much about it.. of course i've thought about it a lot, but now i felt like it's time.. it's time to do something worthwhile.. and so i signed up for this organisation as an activist, went thruogh their training, n finally chosen to help out..



i arrived at the airport about an hour later and met up with a few frens i made along the way.. we board the plane and from then on, i knew there was no turning back.. we've come for a mission and i won't be coming back until my job here is done.. it was gonna be a long flight and even though i tried to rest my eyes, my mind wouldn't stop thinking about the possibilities..



back home, my family came back to an empty house.. eventually, my note will be read n i can imagine how their reactions will be.. but by then, i'll already be halfway to my destination.. i'm sorry for any disappointement or pain i caused, i never meant to be selfish..

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unfinished shoty i did a while back.. posting this up on 29.11.2010.. it's been a while...

lets start the countdown

so only a few days left till i'm off to labuan Woot!! can't wait can't wait can't wait *do the victory dance* it's gonna be a short trip but definitely worth it.. next time i step foot there might be in the next coming year when Jue gets married... nevertheless, i'll fully make use of the time i'll spend there...

currently in the office, boring myself to death.. i have no idea whut to write right now (honestly i'm a bit lazy), but i dunnoe whut else to do.. i didn't even feel like writing cuz i noe without a topic, i'll just blabber non stop with no point whatsoever.. i'm soo sleepy, i think i'll go n take a nap =b

toodles

like the new layout?

Let It All Out.. Not

There's so much i wanted to say,
But I'm not sure where to begin,
I guess I'll start with that one fine day,
Where things changed and was never the same again,
I was young and foolish, I had this thrill I wanted to fullfil,
But I paid for it heavily, you made sure I received the bill,
Years passed and I've come to terms of what I did,
But I guess you'll never let that day hid,
Equality was wishful thinking, but it was something i thought we had,
I was wrong to think so which made me so damned sad,
I'm tried of going through the same thing over and over,
It kinda wears me down and sometimes I feel like such a sore loser,
My life is pathetic enough, please don't make it worse,
I've grown up now, so lift up this curse,
I'm sorry if I'm a big disappointment to you,
I did my best to make you proud,
I just wanted to live my way and do what I do,
I didn't mean to put you under a cloud,
I hoped the tears you cried were only tears of joy,
Unfortunately, it isn't so, they were tears that could destroy,
Destroy a wonderfull relationship that is yet to be mend,
A relationship that although is broken, yet one that will never end,
So i'll apologise upfront and say i'm sorry, though it's hard,
But this will be the last time i put down my guard..

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completed on 29.11.2010

TBL Part 2

so currently, i'm in the process of cutting down the portion of food i eat as a mean to cut fats.. i've managed to reduce my breakfast consumption for about a week now, give and take.. so instead of taking big breakfast, i opt to only eat a few biscuits and a cup of coffee/milo...and i noe it ain't good to eat in between meal, but i'm eating cereals just to munch on so that come lunch, i wouldn't be too hungry.. i do take lunch n dinner which sumtimes, i eat rice twice, but i try to reduce the portion just to make sure that i eat enough but not too much... those who noes me might noe that i'm not really the type who really give a shit about my weight or how my body looks like.. well, mainly cuz growing up, i was skinny... n not cuz i dun eat that much, i think i eat normally, but maybe it's cuz of the gene my mum had that i inherit.. u see, once upon a time, i still fit in the outfit my mum wore when she was solemnised, n i think i was in high skool back then... so imagine how little my mum was when she was 26 (i think that's her age when she got married).. n now, a few years down the road, i couldn't really get myself to fit it anymore.. so that's how much i grow.. off course, i still wouldn't give a damn about it if it doesn't effect me in a sense that i have to get a new wardrobe.. i used to love buying jeans (although how many jeans can u really have right) so i think it's safe to say that i owe about 7 jeans once, that i could fit in all.. n now, i could only fit in 2, which one of them i barely fit... i feel like my tummy is bulging out i felt disgusted (cuz basically that's how i feel when i see really fat girls wearing tight tops) i'm not saying dat i dispise fat girls.. i never do.. it's just the way u choose to dress.. off course some may argue dat what i wear is none of ur business, well u made it my business by making me sick... ok ok i'm going way out of topic here... so yeah basically, i try to eat as much as i need to n not as much as i want to... but then again, i havn't been to labuan yet where the list of things to do consist mainly of eating... so perhaps that'll balance things out aight? hahahaha

on another note, this weekend is Mother's Day and my dad's side of the family are planning to celebrate it tomorrow at Concorde KLIA... so my mum might not join us cuz she has cls plus she sulking i think cuz whenever we asked our dad to eat outside, he's like "we need to save money' but as usual if it involves his family, he's the first one on the boat (n actually offer to pay for us).. i understand how she feels but i kinda got used to it, n well, it'll be good if she can join cuz whut's the purpose of celebrating mother's day if u're own mum would be there right... and contrary to whut happened last week, off course la i still love my mum.. we just sumtimes dun see eye to eye n i guess that's normal... at least we're still living together n are on talking terms... so my sisters n i thought of getting her a mp3 voice recorder so that she could record all her classes n re-listen to 'em.. my sister though of giving her a spa voucher but to me, i like to give things to ppl that i noe they'll need... i'm not saying that my sis idea sux.. i mean, it'll be nice for her to go n relax n all (although she ssems to be on Farmville 24/7) i think she'll do better with a voice recorder hahahha but it cost a lot, n she just made me forked out extra money to pay for my flight which i have been saving... but whutever.. lets just get pass that...

owh besides catching The Losers last Monday, we went to watch Iron Man 2 last night which was so-so... the least i could do for Mohsin...