Friday the 13th

nothing to say actually... just wanna post something on this day (backdated as today is actually 20.08.2010...

just filling up my time.. about to apply for my car loan but will wait for Jackie to return n sign my papers..

Words By Him

So try and love me while you can
And take the time to understand
As long as I can touch your face
You know I'll never leave this place

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Now I think I understand
How this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you

Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side

Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid

I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

-foREVer-

Quickie

Fasting month has officially started... went for Tarawikh last night n had sahur early this morning.. hopefully this yeah, i'll manage to fast fully for the month.. looking forward to Raya =D i have training later today up till 27th August.. we get to go back 30mins earlier tho it won't make a big difference.. yaya get to go back @ 4pm.. kinda feel bad if she have to wait for me to get back.. imagine having to go home just the same either way...

just a quickie.. need to sign off soon... hope everyone have a good day n Happy Fasting..

We're On A Roll Here

this must be some kind of record here i'm making right? i can't even count how many post i have here for the past few days... n yes Kin, sometimes ppl do have several post in one day =b whut i wanna have for this post (inspired by Hani) is to post pics of my collegues here i have in Maybank.. as u may noe, i dun have dat much frens (aawww c'mon) n i dun get along easy with others.. my frens in high school, n frens in college n even Marcus Evans all consist of non-Malays.. yes, sometimes a get a long better with them... not racist or anything, but before this, i never seem to fit in the malay clique (or maybe there are other reasons contributing to it) so the frens i make here in Maybank could be considered the 2nd batch of malay frens i make (not dat i care what race they are anyway)...

so here are some pics from our MRM dinner... Enjoy

Glow in the Dark

Thriller!!

Look @ Sam (Guy in Red up front)

Presenting Sam!!!

With Baby Qaseh (Celebrity of the Night)

Doing the poco poco (Work it Baby)

Such a fun night...

It came Unexpectedly

so i haven't been writing much far a long time now.. up until last night, i can't even recall the last time i manage to write something that i was proud of (which was within my standards of course).. i remember once i had this enthusiasm n wrote about 4 poems in a row.. n the coolest thing was dat i didn't even had to try dat much becuz it all just seems to fall into place perfectly.. i guess the harder u try, ther harder it gets.. so yeah, last last was something good for me.. might not seem like a big fuss to most, but to me it did matter sumhow.. now i noe i ain't the type to write non-stop or at least once a month.. i mean if u look at my overall blog, it's not just poetry as i would like it to be.. instead it's just a bunch of stories which i can't seem to tell more beautifully (not dat my poems r ever beautiful haha)..

so what i did last night was kinda like one of those moment i used to have.. where it just came out of nowhere n the words started to flow... i think it's up a level where i don't use cliche' words that much... or is it just me? hahaha i was about to write more about A7X, particularly M Shadows but after browsing pics of him to post and making up captions to go with it, i suddenly felt like the urge to write.. n when i did, my imagination seems to wander.. n finally i ended up writing about 6 sets right? all within 5 mins.. so i guess when songwriters say dat they write a song in about an hour, it kinda make sense.. mine is just more lousy dat's y it took a shorter time to finish =b

right, so u may think, no biggie (n if so, scram u!!)n i feel like throughout this post i'm just repeating myself, but really, i just needed it.. i guess when it all feels right, then it's right.. i hope i get back on the horse soon again, but till then, we'll just see.. i might come up with something dark, which i quite enjoy now after hearing these songs..

my lil sis walked into our room once while i was listening to them n asked since when did i listen to these music... i guess i could never really say.. we used to like the same music.. n whutever music @ bands dat i like n introduce to them, n they seem to like it, my love for them seems to grow so-so... but with Christina Aguilera @ Taylor Swift or maybe even Avenged Sevenfold, they don't seem to bother much n i don't seem to care cuz i'll just love them more =b

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seems like a long one right.. so we might start fasting tomorrow.. managed to have breakfast with my collegues this morning... hope this will be a good month.. can't wait for Raya to come.. the gatherings, the food, the gatherings, and more food.. yeah girl, stop drooling.. gonna take pics pics pics.. gonna give money money money... yikes.. alright i'm bored n my brain is sleeping...

And so it goes on

yes, i noe it's annoying but i just can't help it.. it just kinda happened at the time when i have nothing better to do, n when i feel like putting in the effort (which hardly occurs).. so yeah another post which i must mention about them...

he's hot as hell, so u can't really blame me

with a killer smile too.. i could totally do him..

just one glance and u caught my eyes,
i'd never stood a chance but at least i'll try,
to get closer to u, n maybe, just maybe
be that one person for u, who u'll never set free

my hands are sweating as i try to find the words,
for this fairy tale to finally incur,
i walked straight up to u while u were hanging with the boys,
n thought it's now or never, n i'm making a choice

u saw me approach u, u didn't hesitate,
to offer me a smile, one that i could never hate,
we started talking, u told me more about you,
u told me things, that i never thought i'd knew

u were gonna head off, but u gave me ur number,
u didn't manage to get mine, but u'll never call me that i'd figured,
so i just laid back n watch this hell of a guy left,
n curse my lucky numbers for not taking that bet

a minute or so passed n my phone rang,
i wasn't in the mood so i just left it hang,
i got home dat night n listen to my mailbox,
u left a message saying that he had a good talk

"Maybe we could do it again sometime"
oh heck, i would mind,
so i lay down in my bed n started to wonder,
about how my life would be like with Matt Sanders...


u see what inspiration can do to ur life? fuck i miss writing...

The Little Things in Life

u noe how they say that sumtimes, the little things in life is what matters the most? well, on d way back from work just now, while in the car, we were listening to the radio and Aerosmith was on so we sang-a-long to them.. as i was looking out of my window, whut did i see? d driver in the car next to us was singing the same tune.. u can't hear a thing, but he was clearly mouthing the words to the song...


Epic

Ringtones

just had lunch... such a lazy day today... currently listening to my playlist of A7X... had an obsessive weekend of 'em.. Nightmare is growing on me.. they sure have a bunch of great songs (and quite long too) super great chorus, which i can't seem to get off my mind... how is it that i haven't heard of them until 2 years ago?? right, cuz i was more of a popchick then n the most hardcore of rock dat i listen too weren't that heavy n involve less screaming.. i guess dat trip to Genting really pays off then.. Dear God was on constant replay on Ajs' radio n i've since then dat has been one of my favourite song, musically n lyrically... n currently my ringtone for my dearest BB... would prefer to have it sooner but with dat nokia of mine with limited space, i only used songs that i already had as my ringtone, which is basically Beep by PCD, n for Jue n Kin was Pimp by 50 cent, n for family was some techno song which i havn't heard of before i got dat phone...

so after learning to cut song (thanx to our dinner performance for MRM), i decided to cut some songs as my new ringtone.. i can't seem to let go of Dear God's intro, so i opt to use the chorus of Afterlife for my sisters and d chorus of A Little Piece of Heaven for Jue n Kin... well, since i dun get dat much call anyway, so i'll jest settle for that for the time being.. yup, continuing the A7X obsession so we'll just see how it go..

on another note, it's kinda funny (not funny ha-ha) dat i keep my phone on silent in the office.. i mean, it's not like i'm in a library or in class anymore right.. i mean, i hear other ppls ringtone all the time to the extent that i can call dat person's n say their phone is ringing if their not around..

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sleepy sleepy lazy lazy... went back to PD during the weekend... got loads of rambutan.. it was Baby B's 2nd birthday!! so cute i wanna preserve her like dat forever hahaha i miss Basirah so much.. she's a big girl now, already halfway through her 1st yr in primary school.. i could still picture her as this very little girl who i used to play with.. Selamat Hari Raya Kak Inaz.. ..Sape penah tido otel?.. i dah pandai godek... kite lagi suke kak epa sbb rambut die panjang n cantek... hehehe those are basically a few of her words which really lands a spot in my heart.. i think i really had one of those "look how fast they grow up" moment wehn i look at her.. i can't imagine having my own baby n really seeing her growing up before my eyes... hmm kinda makes me appreciate my mum even more hahahha yeah, i'm quite a disappointment sumtimes, so sorry for dat.. i didn't really turn out the way u'd thought right?

right so stop stop stop.. u're starting to blabber girl.. stop now!! hahaha yes i'm dat bored n i really dun wanna continue working.. but she's back sitting right behind me so i guess i better go..

You should have known, the price of evil....

My Latest Addiction

ok, so i noe A7X just released a new album (which is currently #1 on Billboard) but i can't seem to get this song off my head... definitely my latest addiction.. M Shadows is so yummy... too bad he's married...

Enjoy

So Far Away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong enough despite
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are untied
So far away
And I needed to know
So far away
And I need you to need you to know

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