so much to say, to tired to care

i dun really feel like blogging even tho i hav quite a few things to say.. i'll try to pour everything out while i getting into details only when i feel like it.. first of, as noticed, i dun hav a post about my new blackberry..it's cuz i actually have a post reserved which i saved but was just waiting for pix.. being me, i keep delaying things n up until now, i dun have a pic of my bb yet.. so, dat'll be up some other time..

next, we went to Ipoh last saturday n boy, was it hot or what..i noe we currently have this heat wave thing were temperature are rising everywhere, but saturday was almost unbareable.. the heat was literally burning my skin.. as if i'm not charcoal enuff already.. anyway, we drove to Ipoh, was out the house around 8:30am.. along the way, it was raining on and off so it was a pretty cool ride.. wasn't really heaty n all.. MJ was on so it was enjoyable.. owh my mum had to pass cuz she had class.. reached there by 11am i think.. met a few cousins who came along.. was starting to sweat but the fan helped cool things down a bit.. then when it was time, we drove to arul's house n that's when the heat was rushing thru.. we had to park a few yards away from is house (how far is a yard anyway?) cuz off course we need to walk a distance 1st b4 reaching d place.. n i hav 2 say, it was hot as hell... skins started to burn n all n i could feel my face turning red, as in trying to blend in with the way i felt yada yada... anyway, had lunch, which was nice.. took pics again.. stayed a few more minutes or so n went back.. which we had to walk d same distance.. good thing was went we reached the homestay, aunt wahidah baught cendol (again) n abc which was like heaven.. had a few servings i think.. n even tho we just had lunch, n it wasn't even time for high tea yet, it was a much needed course indeed.. lepak a few more hours before we headed back home... owh uncle zul was also there, whom i rarely meet.. family history, dun feel like telling.. mohsin stayed overnight for golf (what else)

so work has been interesting...NOT.. some1 pls teach me how to force myself to like this job.. it's not just whut i do but the nature of it really... i can't seem to relate to this environment, treasury in particular.. as my new boss says, can u appreciate the things we have here?? so yeah, i rephrase that but whut the hell, i noe whut she means... how will the things that go on here impact me? recently there was an increase in OPR (which i yet have to grasp its full meaning) whut do i see of it? whut implications can i come out, out of that? i noe there's still a lot to learn, i just need that teacher to do so.. but then lets just face it.. this ain't a university.. u learn things differently here.. no more lecture ok.. anyway, we were told that we'll have to go thru BAU 1st before we could really start doing project, which i agree.. i didn't have enuff time to learn things here, n i can't really configure a system without knowing whut i want or whut should be done etc..i just hope that this decision came sooner.. maybe i was supposed to voice this out, but it didn't really occur to me this way..so yeah, i'll be learning more things coming next week.. previously, i was only doing the intraday n cob reprt.. so i just noe roughly bout a few things.. so far i could understand bits here and there about some stuff..i havn't really come to that stage where i see it as a whole picture.. i've only got fragments of it in my mind...i noe i'm supposed to ask more questions, it's just beside the normal why? i'm not really sure whut am i suppose to know.. which might be the dumbest thing ever...

sigh.. that was more then i bargain for..anyway, i'm always tired now.. i'm not sure if it's the things i do or the unhealthy lifestyle i live =b i feel like i need a good massage.. how heaven will that be..i've been doing some hula hoop recently.. not consistently but maybe more than whut i manage to do last year..last 2 weeks, i tried to do it everyday n watch the portion of my food.. as a result, i manage to fit in my baju kurung for sara's wedding (if i didn't mention it earlier) but off course la ade tight sket =b den did a bit last week... took a day off on monday just to lay back..plus i had an extra day of leave dat i carried forward frm last year... i manage the hula till 20 mins i think.. but confirm, 5 songs... was thinking of waking up a bit earlier each morning, to do 15mins everyday, but then again, me being me.... the biggest loser asia finale pretty much sux.. not worth mentioning... watched Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton in 3D.. gav a bit of a headache with d extra glasses.. this saturday, will be catching Disney On Ice (again!!) hopefully we scored good seats like last time.. kelly clarkson will come over next month.. still undecided whether to go or not.. it's outdoor so it might sux like avril.. but then again, we baught the cheapest tix.. so u pay peanuts.....on the other hand, West Side Story will be here in May...sounds very interesting yet cost a whole lot more then i could afford.. if u wanna catch a show, might as well make it worth it kn? so if i manage to save up a bit (have i ever?) with whut's left of this month n next month, then i might just go... we'll see...



fucking tired