My Snoop Dogg

that's whut i call the guy i hav a crush on. his real name is rudy. to be honest, he's not the guy i'm usually attracted to. he's quite good looking, cute, but style wise, no comment. maybe it's becuz he's working. the 1st time i met him, i juz think he's cute, no crushes whut so ever. i didn't really had the chance to talk to him cuz he always seems bz. n when he's alone, i dun hav the courage to go up to him. weird. i dun hav butterflies tho. but i luv his smile. n those eyes juz make ya wanna melt xb he plays the guitar, so dat's good news. anyway, ever since i got back here, i can't stop thinking about him. sumtimes i'm not sure if i really like him, or i miss being in luv. jue noes about this. i asked her to help me out abit, see if he's interested. but then again, if he is, i'd doubt that 'we' would work out. u noe i can never survive long-distance relationship. i can't even say that i'll meet him once a yr. i got his hp num from botak. unfortunately, he doesn't hav his own hp n so he replies vary late which frustretes me. n juz now, he said he'll be quiting his job. how on earth will i get to see him then??

*** my heart hurts ***