tied together with a smile

seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty is the face in the mirror looking back at you

taylor swift

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writings

i've always been captivated by writings.. i guess i started to love writing after a poem competition way back when i was in form 3, n jue n i tried to come up with our own version of '10 things i hate about u'.. after that, i started writing poems n short stories.. tho they were all ameatur attempts, it sumhow satisfies me dat i could come up with things n putting them down on paper.. however, after reading them years later or maybe months later, it doesn't seem all dat good anymore.. i read other people's writings n i'm amazed at how they write.. the words chosen are very appropriate n meaningful without trying too hard.. me on the other hand, tend to think a lot to come up with phrases so good, it doesn't even makes sense.. a blog that i'm reading at this moment has juz dat.. good writings.. where juz by reading it, u can tell that the blogger is someone intelligent n bright.. putting the fact that we went to college together aside, i never knew he had good choice of words which actually made me read all his postings.. so he writes others quotes a lot in his blogs, but besides that, the other writings n information he puts in his blog, really captivates me.. it's light reading for me, but ones that makes me think.. here's a link to his blog the middling .. i noe no1 reads this, but to those who have come across my blog, drop by his blog to see whut i really mean..

isn't it weird dat i keep talking as if sum1 actually reads this, where in reality, i've never told any1 about the existence of my blog..

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i am a nerd

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
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my very own

ring.. ring..

orked: hello??
mukhsin: hye, orked.. ader any plan tak for 2nite?
O: hmm, takde.. why?
M: get ready lar, in 20 minutes mukhsin dtg ambil..
O: nk pegi maner??
M: surprise...
i hung up the phone on got ready.. i went outside my room to ask my parents' permission but told them that i was going out with my fren.. 18 minutes later, mukhsin arrived in his blue car.. i got in and buckled up..
O: nk pegi maner ni??
M: ader lar....
we then drove quietly and in 10 minutes, reached on top of some hills.. a magnificent view lays a head of me...
M: jom kluar keta..
O: okies...
we got out of the car and mukhsin went to get something at the back of the car while i sat on the car out at the front, taking in the view in front of me.. it was lovely indeed.. i heard mukhsin coming out front so i turn to look at him and saw him holding a cupcake with one candle lit on it..
M: make a wish..
O: aww.. how sweet hehehe
M: ader lagi present for u...
he took out a little purple box and hand it to me... inside was a charm bracelet with butterflies and hearts...
O: cantik...

his phone rang so he picked it up.. he was nodding while listening to the person on the other line...
M: cube tgk kt saner... ader one last surprise...
he pointed to my left and so i watched at that direction but saw nothing...
O: ader aper??
M: erm, tgk jer, nnt ader sumthing tue..

1 minute
O: takder ape2 pon..

i looked at him questionably not knowing what he was talking about

boom... boom...

i qiuckly looked to my left and saw the fireworks...
O: woww....

i looked at him with appreciation
O: fireworks??

he smiled with pride knowing that he accomplished something.. we watched the fireworks doing its magic above us with sealed lips.. both of us not wanting to interrupt its beauty.. it lasted about 10 minutes and the moment quickly changed from the pounding of the fireworks to silence..
O: it's so quite
i said as i looked up to him
O: thank you

he then leaned over and kiss me lightly on my forehead...


Happy Birthday

Sid Vicious

You were my little baby girl
And i shared all your fears
Such joy to hold you in my arms
And kiss away your tears
But now you're gone there's only pain
And nothing can do
And i don't want to live this life
If i can't live for you
To my beautiful baby girl
Our love will never die

another daydream

cls has finally started after 1 moths plus break.. i hung out wif my frens a lot this time so i guess my new yr resolution for making more frens is in a way done.. i baught a hula hoop and a skipping rope to exercice and i'm working on that.. anyway, after not posting for so long, i just wanna say that i'm working on a little story which i thought of naming it as another daydream cuz basically that's what it is.. i've written a short story before which is untitled but i got stuck in the middle of it and it's been left like that ever since.. i hope i get to finish this one, but i'm not sure whether to let any1 else read it or not.. i guess i'll figure that out later when it is complete.. it's a very amateur attemp from me but whut isn't rite? lol so i'll keep this short and lets keep our fingers crossed

cheers

something to ponder on

why do i fall too easily?

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Poems

who knew it's already been 5 years since high skool.. i attended my high skool reunion recently, last saturday to be exact.. it was ok, considering the vast of ppl there.. sure i dun mingle wif that crowd but i juz showed up as to not offend my fren sofia.. newayz pics will be up later (later does not mean soon ya =p) this entry will be about poems dat i wrote..

a few days ago, me, my sisters n my mum were in the kitchen talking bout places we want to eat at n things we wished to do.. so my elder sis took a note pad to write down a list.. to keep things short, they found a short poem (4 lines) in it n made a joke bout me writing poems.. i didn't mind cuz it might not occur to ppl dat i like writing.. they didn't know either so this entry will consist of some poems i wrote.. they're not that good but it'll do at the moment i guess..

.Gruesome.
i found my boyfriend, he was lying in a ditch
i smiled at that pathetic son of a bitch
they said he was missing, missing from where
i knew he was gone but i didn't care
he was cheating on me with the girl next door
it wasn't the first time, this has happened before
he said it was over, i believed him at first
but i saw him again with her, his lips on hers
damn i was fooled again, so i think of a way
to get my revenge cause that bastard had to pay
for the heartache he caused and the pain i went through
five minutes later, i knew what to do

two days later, people were looking around
looking for him up and down
left to right, wherever they could go
some asked me about him, i said i didn't know
and that's the truth, i didn't do anything
except went next door and hear the bell ring
a girl opened the door with blood on her hands
i freaked out, took a step back and ran
i found my boyfriend, he was lying in a ditch
i smiled at that pathetic son of a bitch
he had his heart ripped out of his chest
the funny thing is, he was wearing a dress
people started to gather around with curiosity
some couldn't stand the look of it so they backed up slowly
as for me i was glad cause it was a nice view
to see him gone so i could finally start a new

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.Lame-O.
you were sitting across the room, playing your guitar
i just sat here and watched you from afar
you smiled at me and i smiled back
we were so in love and that's a fact
i wanted to give you something that can't be bought
i looked outside the window and thought

i've always wanted to write a song
a perfect melody that can go along
i grabbed a pen and a piece of paper
and started to write about us together

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.My 1st Country Sound.
i watched you from across the street, with a guitar in your hand
you were having a good time, you were laughing with your friends
i saw her walked towards you, in her high heels shoe
a kiss upon the cheek and a warm hug too

how i wish i was her, pretty and lucky
to be noticed by you, and to be loved too
how i wish i was her, full with confidence
and not the shy away from the one she love

it was prom night and she was your date
she wore a beautiful dress that took your breathe away
you never once took your eyes off her
and i wonder, if you notice other girls envy her.

Rabun Screening

this picture was taken on April 3 after the screening of rabun.. i have to say dat i'm quite fond with the works of Yasmin Ahmad..she has a way of capturing ur hearts with the works she's done esp for those emo individuals like me.. n i'm not talking bout the gothic emo type but emotional n sensetive or whutever catogory dat i'm in... i get touched easily (not literally).. i mean, who watches Over Her Dead Body n cry?? well i do... but only at dat last part when the guy was heartbroken n his dead fiance' was watching him sadly.. ok enuff said.. so i enjoyed my evening at Leo Burnett tho i was a lil' quiet as usual.. the storytellerian were all good tho... made sum new frens.. at least i'm actually taking actions n follow my resolution after all hahaha

this is just a quick update n i thot of adding more pics in here.. owh yea, i baught a new video camera on April 12.. will be posting a pic soon... currently, i'm working on a small project (hopefully) with my sisters as a present for my mum on Mothers' Day.. hope it goes well... gotta start writing a bit for the short sketch.. n i must start on my assignments too... n my mum's not around cuz she went for umrah wif my opah n nek usu so there's loads of chores to be done.. plus my lil sis is home but i dun think she'll be dat much help (jahatnyer) huhuh so before i continue blabbing alone here, i'll just stop writing n go to sleep.. nitez...

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i need a life bad

first thing's first, i feel so stupid rite now n i'm not sure if i'm even supposed to.. wait, yes i do.. everyone should noe whut facebook is by now, so i was browsing through it after like weeks of not logging in.. big mistake.. i stumbled across dis girls' page whose name is not worth mentioning here n it turns out she has diz stupid application where she can track who visited her page.. i didn't want her to noe for sure!! but it was too late by then.. i scrolled down n my face was at her page saying, shafinaz was here... fucking damn it!! so i ended up deleting my account in hoping dat it will appear at her page as account has been deleted or sumthing which i can't say fo sure if it does cuz i went thru all d trouble of having a new email n account n went to her page again but i can't view it... fucking damn i!! i'm not sure if it's a big deal but it is to me cuz i hate her n i'm not sure why... wait, yes i do.. aaarrrgggh!!!! i'm just pissed off at myself... i'm supposed to do my assignment but i delayed it n now she's gonna noe dat i'm snooping her page.. fine, so i do care whut she says, in fact i care whut everyone says about me, which i dun think is much considering i dun have a life... i mean look at me, i could shameless say without a doubt i'm pathetic... i cry for no reason at all, or maybe some that might not seem necessary, like rite now for example... ok so i'm not crying but i'm close to it... i have nothing better to do besides chores and assignments... n most mportantly I HAVE NO FRENS.... n this has been bugging me for like 2 yrs or 3 yrs now n yeah i am pathetic... i dun wanna sound desperate or anything but this is how i feel rite now... n all i worry about is who is gonna be at my funeral... why?? why?? i need a hobby.. rite?? no... i need a life... bad..

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updated: turns out it was just a prank facebook did to freak ppl out... i guess i did freak out for no apparent reason