Being Me

live life the fullest,

that's whut they say,

it might sound easy,

but it's hard in so many ways.

i've been living my life,

trying to make the people around me happy,

but then i stopped n think,

"whut's in it for me?"

people sumtimes say,

"when u're happy, i'm happy too"

i guess dat doesn't work for me,

like it does for you.

they expect a lot from me,

owh why can't they juzz see?

that i juzz wanna live,

and there's not much dat i could give.

they kept telling me the same things,

over and over again,

bout the importance in life,

and whut should i do wif them.

whut's a gurl gotta do,

to keep everyone satisfy?

i kept asking myself this,

and there were times that i cry.

i wanna do the things i enjoy,

i wanna act, sing and even dance,

i wanna spread my wings and juzz soar,

would anyone out there give me the chance?

so from this moment on,

i've already made up my mind,

that i'm gonna rule my own life,

and put the past behind.

to all you peepz out there,

now u've finally see,

whut it really feels like,

being me.

Q

i waited in vain for your reply,

waited for you to type 'hye',

but as time pass by,

i felt i could cry,

cuz nothing appeared on my sreen,

nothing to ease me as i scream.

what made you that busy?

that you can't even talk to me,

what made you that occupied?

to ignore me and lie,

there were times i hated you,

you said that's something i'll never do,

then what made me so mad?

what made me so sad?

i thought i had enough of your behavior,

but there were times i still think you're my savior,

as you save me from myself and let me know,

that though we're apart, you'll never let me go.

My Goodbye

i"ll miss the wind that blows on my skin,

i'll miss the voice that whispers within,

i'll miss the flowers as they beautifully bloom,

i'll miss these four walls in this empty room.

being alone just made me wonder,

how great it is just to live,

though things don't usually come easy,

you gotta stay strong, gotta work it, gotta keep living on.

i've been staying like this for a moment now,

and it's hard to admit that i'm weak.

so "goodbye to this world" i cry out loud,

'cuz this is the last of me, this is my last bow.

did you know

did u know that chocolate could actually kill dogs and cats? yep dat's right.. i read this in a magazine n did a lil' google about it, n apparently it's true.. here's a note on why chocolate is lethal which i took from here

Chocolate contains theobromine. A naturally occurring stimulant found in the cocoa bean, theobromine increases urination and affects the central nervous system as well as heart muscle. While amounts vary by type of chocolate, it's the theobromine that is poisonous to dogs.

not really sure what that means, but it's an interesting information to know..

ps: notice how often i blog lately? i'm trying to make it a habit... it takes time

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tied together with a smile

seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty is the face in the mirror looking back at you

taylor swift

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writings

i've always been captivated by writings.. i guess i started to love writing after a poem competition way back when i was in form 3, n jue n i tried to come up with our own version of '10 things i hate about u'.. after that, i started writing poems n short stories.. tho they were all ameatur attempts, it sumhow satisfies me dat i could come up with things n putting them down on paper.. however, after reading them years later or maybe months later, it doesn't seem all dat good anymore.. i read other people's writings n i'm amazed at how they write.. the words chosen are very appropriate n meaningful without trying too hard.. me on the other hand, tend to think a lot to come up with phrases so good, it doesn't even makes sense.. a blog that i'm reading at this moment has juz dat.. good writings.. where juz by reading it, u can tell that the blogger is someone intelligent n bright.. putting the fact that we went to college together aside, i never knew he had good choice of words which actually made me read all his postings.. so he writes others quotes a lot in his blogs, but besides that, the other writings n information he puts in his blog, really captivates me.. it's light reading for me, but ones that makes me think.. here's a link to his blog the middling .. i noe no1 reads this, but to those who have come across my blog, drop by his blog to see whut i really mean..

isn't it weird dat i keep talking as if sum1 actually reads this, where in reality, i've never told any1 about the existence of my blog..

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i am a nerd

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
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my very own

ring.. ring..

orked: hello??
mukhsin: hye, orked.. ader any plan tak for 2nite?
O: hmm, takde.. why?
M: get ready lar, in 20 minutes mukhsin dtg ambil..
O: nk pegi maner??
M: surprise...
i hung up the phone on got ready.. i went outside my room to ask my parents' permission but told them that i was going out with my fren.. 18 minutes later, mukhsin arrived in his blue car.. i got in and buckled up..
O: nk pegi maner ni??
M: ader lar....
we then drove quietly and in 10 minutes, reached on top of some hills.. a magnificent view lays a head of me...
M: jom kluar keta..
O: okies...
we got out of the car and mukhsin went to get something at the back of the car while i sat on the car out at the front, taking in the view in front of me.. it was lovely indeed.. i heard mukhsin coming out front so i turn to look at him and saw him holding a cupcake with one candle lit on it..
M: make a wish..
O: aww.. how sweet hehehe
M: ader lagi present for u...
he took out a little purple box and hand it to me... inside was a charm bracelet with butterflies and hearts...
O: cantik...

his phone rang so he picked it up.. he was nodding while listening to the person on the other line...
M: cube tgk kt saner... ader one last surprise...
he pointed to my left and so i watched at that direction but saw nothing...
O: ader aper??
M: erm, tgk jer, nnt ader sumthing tue..

1 minute
O: takder ape2 pon..

i looked at him questionably not knowing what he was talking about

boom... boom...

i qiuckly looked to my left and saw the fireworks...
O: woww....

i looked at him with appreciation
O: fireworks??

he smiled with pride knowing that he accomplished something.. we watched the fireworks doing its magic above us with sealed lips.. both of us not wanting to interrupt its beauty.. it lasted about 10 minutes and the moment quickly changed from the pounding of the fireworks to silence..
O: it's so quite
i said as i looked up to him
O: thank you

he then leaned over and kiss me lightly on my forehead...


Happy Birthday

Sid Vicious

You were my little baby girl
And i shared all your fears
Such joy to hold you in my arms
And kiss away your tears
But now you're gone there's only pain
And nothing can do
And i don't want to live this life
If i can't live for you
To my beautiful baby girl
Our love will never die

another daydream

cls has finally started after 1 moths plus break.. i hung out wif my frens a lot this time so i guess my new yr resolution for making more frens is in a way done.. i baught a hula hoop and a skipping rope to exercice and i'm working on that.. anyway, after not posting for so long, i just wanna say that i'm working on a little story which i thought of naming it as another daydream cuz basically that's what it is.. i've written a short story before which is untitled but i got stuck in the middle of it and it's been left like that ever since.. i hope i get to finish this one, but i'm not sure whether to let any1 else read it or not.. i guess i'll figure that out later when it is complete.. it's a very amateur attemp from me but whut isn't rite? lol so i'll keep this short and lets keep our fingers crossed

cheers