i watch too much oprah

i think we need more self-respect..when u treat urself with more love and care, others will tend to do the same.. however, people don't always turn out the way we thought they would.. and so it may be crucial to get to know someone before letting them in.. but then, like one of my acquaintance once said "even after some time, how well will u noe someone".. and as much as i like to think that it'll take time, the truth speaks out by itself.. is there really a person who is willing to give their all to another? will they leave nothing left? not even a spot of privacy or secret that they like to keep to themselves, and forever cherish and burried together alongside their lifeless body? true, there may be people out there who are trusty enough to do so.. but is it worth it?

i, for one, always build a wall or even put on a mask whenever meeting people.. it's hard for me to really show people the kind of person i am, mainly because of the fear of being judge eventho i know people will still judge me otherwise..

so what is this all about? well, i think we should love ourselves more and dun expect much from others.. like what my cousin said during one of our 'deep talks', "don't depend on others n dun let others depend on u".. off course he was talking about general things, but i can't help but relate it to love too (trying not to get mushy here).. u can't really expect others to love u as much as u love urself.. or let them put u 1st ahead of themselves.. i mean, why should they rite? will u do the same? but mayb, if u let them noe, that u do matter, they will indirectly make u matter to them too.. and so supporting my previous note, that by treating urself better, others might do the same..

fingers crossed