The Loner

I Daydream A Lot

2012-02-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

and i think i should really consider a change of career n write books instead.. or maybe venture into script writing... sounds interesting don't u think? although suffering from writers block would be one major weakness for me.. n i always tend to change my story line and also the ending...i think it would be something i'd enjoy doing, instead of what i'm currently doing..

what do u think?

Word

2012-02-14T15:53:00.000+08:00

RESPECT is EARNED!! not GIVEN!! just because u're old, u don't get respected automatically.. especially if u're fucking rude.. do not have the nerve to even think about telling people to respect u after being stupid enough to slander others, especially the people i love.. the way u defend urself is so cheap that even if people don't know u're uneducated, they will still know ur stupidity by the way u write.. how u manipulate things to go ur way doesn't even make sense.. if u wanna lie about something, at least make sure it sounds logic, loser... u're lucky we're a bunch of rational girls who were raised properly.. if we were as crazy as u n be big mouth bitches, i'm sure everyone will be dumbfounded with the things u come up with.. i don't wanna waste my energy on something ridiculous as this and on someone as useless as u.. so make sure u don't mess with us no more, cuz i will sure as hell make ur life a torturing one...

Quote of the Century

2012-02-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

"You even called me stupid in your verse, and I’m almost agreeing, for where stupidity is involved, you are quite an expert, friend." - Franz Grillparzer

Goodbye Long Weekend

2012-02-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

so this weekend has finally come to an end =( i'm not sure when's the next time we'll have a long weekend to ourselves.. it's been 3 weeks in a row that i've worked only 3 days per week... the CNY week, then took 30th off n that wednesday was FT day, n now this week.. how awesome can life be hehehe n my dad will 'highlight' the low productivity of the bank with all these day off we're getting hehehehe

i noe i havn't blog for a while.. normal excuse, just dun feel like it.. my weekend is pretty normal.. celebrated Maulidur Rasul at Masjid Shah Alam last Saturday, ade maulid n all.. Habib Ali, Syeikh Fuad n Syeikh Hafiz was there, so 3 guru in 1 majlis, quite nice actually.. went for another maulid on sunday at an-nur, n ade Habib Mahdi..

then yesterday did some spring cleaning at opah's house.. her kitchen is finally done, n it looks awesome.. very spacious.. mama made pancakes for breakfast, which usu asked for some time ago... n also spaghetti.. alang bought kfc as well for lunch... we watched the tsunami movie yg ade kt astro first hehehe sure opah xfeeling sbb kitorg bising =b sorry ler.. hopefully opah dpt tgk another round since she has 2 days to watch it again heheheh then for dinner, alang bought fried rice for us, but i had leftovers spaghetti.. we watche the Lion King, n ilyas hafal the scenes mcm org tgh bacer script hehehe

2day chillaxing at home.. maen sims n watched Mr Popper's Penguin, fun movie gk la.. n since tgh malas2, i've abandon my quotes n reviews =b biarlah kn, bknnyer ade org kesah pon hahahah so the Giants won the Superbowl not that i care, but did manage to catch the last 5 mins of the game b4 starting the spring cleaning at opah's house.. the Patriot barely made it.. that last touchdown could be a total 180 for the game.. owh n on other note, watched a bit of The Voice with Tony Lucca.. it's funny watching American Idol, n seeing contestants with different stories.. n then u catch this episode of The Voice (which is basically a singing show too) n see him on it, n u've seen him before (on tv/computer of course) it must've been very weird.. having the same start with someone, but ending up having different direction, career wise.. interesting for it to happen (while watching MMC vids on you tube)..

anyway, got this bump on my right shoulder that i need to get check soon cuz it aches a bit, like a 2 day old bruise.. then this morning while jemur baju, my right hand terkena duri, but i guess it kinda hit a wrong spot cuz it kinda hurt too.. it's like it hit a nerve or something cuz i can feel it when i move my fingers n wrist.. n yes, typing this out does hurt a bit so imma stop now =b

I'm Gonna Meet My Future Husband Soon!!!

2012-01-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

or shall i say 'see'? just got news that Avenged Freaking Sevenfold are coming to Malaysia!!!!! Screams!!!!! i'm definitely going, regardless if my sisters wanna teman me or not =b this is one concert i will not miss. period.. i missed christina, but that was in singapore, so it's explainable.. but this is malaysia, n stadium negara so it's a must for me...April 29th, mark ur calendar peeps... xsabar giler, i hope they don't cancel it or anything huhuh balik ni nk layan balik their songs weehooo... i'm gonna see my hubby M Shadows in the flesh (is that the saying?).. front tix will be for tunetalk peeps so not sure if i can get those, but will try to find a tix that's close to the stage... if tix are on sale this month, i'm ignoring the fact that i want to save up for a house heheheh my matt comes first =b i hope it's as good as their LBC one.. lots and lots of fire.. n the uproar one had a man hanging on the stage.. a lil creepy but it sets the mood hehehe

oklah super excited bout this news.. sure tido mlm ni termimpi2 =b ngeng

i'm in love

Good Morning World

2012-01-25T15:09:00.000+08:00

it's been days, i know.. i didn't really feel like writing, that's all.. the long weekend is over.. hope everyone enjoyed it and had a good chill, except for kin of course.. cuz ko keje kn? muahahaha =b it's almost the end of the 1st month for 2012, how did it fare? mine was so-so.. there was a litlle hiccup in the middle of it, no thanx to some idiot cousin of mine who i no longer consider as a cousin n definitely someone who i'll never respect (not that u're respected anyway, u pathetic sore loser) sometimes it's hard to fathom that there are brainless ppl in this world, who are definitely not zombies, last time i checked.. i noe human beings are diverse but i didn't know humans could be that stupid.. but then again it could explain his 'condition'.. no one with a sound mind would want to hire an idiot so that pretty much explain why u can't even feed ur family.. at first i felt like punching him in the face n slitting his throat but that'll take a whole lot of effort on my behalf n he's just not worth it.. trying to take on my own advise n just ignore it.. it just prove to show that u'll never noe what goes on behind closed door so never assume..

anyway moving on.. i think i'm making progress in terms of working out (although at a super slow rate).. i'm trying ok, so don't judge =b i may not fully utilise what i have but i'm working on it at my own pace.. n comparing to what i've done now to what i've achieve (or lack thereof) last year, i think there's a big difference right? right? (say yes hehehe) i need to up my game but i think i'll do it slowly.. i don't have the strength yet n it isn't easy.. i've been watching videos n trying the moves (especially from CarlieStylez) but some are not that simple.. yes i can do it, but maybe about 5 time and then i feel out.. i try to have target although they are rarely met, so i'm not really depending on that.. i just go with the flow.. on top of that, i think i need to work on my eating habits.. this has always been my weakness, n i'm not sure how well i do here.. i won't really take it as a diet, but more towards being conscious about it.. cuz lets face it, with the rate i'm going at in both aspect, i can't really be expecting much results.. so it's something i should look at, but it's gonna be tough (no more carbonara tau izad =b ) i need to cut on fast food, or mcd in particular (although when the workers are clumsy and give us extra burgers, it's hard to say no heheheh) i'm also thinking of munching more so need to go shopping for that hehehe overall with the rate i'm going n the effort i could foresee myself taking, i would most probably to see some result by, lets say June? ok? attainable? well lets ~~hope~~ work for it =D

so during the long weekend, we went for a drive to find a friend's house n i officially found my dream house/neighborhood.. i vaguely remember hani asking bout Ara Damansara but i didn't know where it was at that time.. but now that i've seen it, i want it so badly (affording it is another story, but no harm in dreaming right) the houses there are super awesome, i can't stop being amazed by it, especially going online n saw Seri Pilmoor houses... definitely to die for.. they're so beautiful n super expensive so the only way i could own one is to marry a millionaire =b so now i'm eager than ever to save up money to buy a house.. although i'm very picky about it huhuhuh i can live with a 'cukup syarat' car, but i can't buy a house just for the sake of buying one.. my family always talk about the only way for us to move into a big bungalow is to move to nilai or other places that's far, but we always say no cuz it's too far from OU etc hehehe to us, ttdi is the perfect place for us to live.. it's near to kl for work (so far we only work in kl) n it's also near to shopping malls, namely OU, ikano, ikea, the curves (u noe the drill) n it is also said that a new mall is developing in sg penchala, so we don't need to go far or better yet, go out once a month hehehe so yeah, the first thing i'll look into is of course location.. n then i'm picky about size as well.. i dun really mind a small house (yeke?) but i don't wanna feel suffocated in my own home.. it needs to feel spacious, but again i don't want to limit my furniture in order to have that spacious space hehehe yer2 sgt2 picky.. n i want a big kitchen.. so it needs to have a backyard that i could potentially extend.. not that i love cooking or i'm gonna cook more or anything, but i wanna have an island hehehe i think everyone wants that.. n u can't have an island in a cramp space right.. plus, berangan nk bli corner lot gk (gedik!!) cuz i want a garden.. it doesn't necessarily have to be big, but enough to plant some flowers (mcm la rajin nk jaga) haiishhh mcm2 kn... so, point now is to save up money to actually afford a house...

but before that, my priority lies towards a family vacation.. our target next year kn korg? hehehe where? that's something to think of a bit later cuz we have loads of option.. yg slalu mention is of course New Zealand and Morocco.. but a few days ni, we're also thinking of Perth.. sebab? after Bangkok dat day, Uncle Aziz ajak papa golf kt Perth plak.. n sy bg green light sbb nk ikot muahahah so an 'excuse' for a family vacation.. n also lepas tgk Shaytards, kitorg teringin gi Disneyland.. mama said we went to Disneyworld dlu2 but i don't really remember it huhuhu but papa slalu mention tunggu izad keje dlu otherwise kne sponsor die plak, so izad, cepat2 la keje k =b if xpon, buat la plan 250 mcm yg kitorg ckp kt kundang tu... cukup kn? hehehe go izad go, u can do it hehehehe

oklah.. too much ramblings.. bosan la plak tulis =b will write later (not necessarily soon) toodles..

He Shoot.. He Scores!!!

2012-01-20T16:57:00.001+08:00

knowledge

physical

time management

discipline

to expand the list

More Food!!

2012-01-11T11:05:00.000+08:00

so last Sunday, we went out for dinner n surprisingly, papa joined too (ajak pon sbb izad rs papa mcm lapar) so we decided to go to Khan Baba @ TTDI.. malas nk gi jauh2, n dh boring ngn Santai so nk try something else la plak.. i know kitorg dh byk kali gi tpt2 mknan arab ni.. dh tu, order bende2 samer jer (sure nk kne ade lamb mandy hehehe) ni kedai arab gk.. yg ni pon ala2 arab gk.. n not forgetting this place..so pics2 sumer mcm samer jer rupe hehehe anyway, we each ordered a meal..

papa tertipu ngn pics, nmpk cm sup daging.. rasa plak, mama masak lg sedap =b

yaya ordered spaghetti.. sedap n cheesy sgt.. yummsss

i ordered lamb kebab.. it was a bit dry for my liking but ok lar..

i also ordered cheese nan sbb mcm best jer =b

mama n izad geng, ordered lamb mandy each (a must)

the verdict? we would fall back to Ar'Rawsha gk eventually.. even tho mkn lamb mandy jer, but it taste better (tp slalu ade hati nk try tpt2 laen haishh.. total damage was about RM133 for all the food plus 5 drinks..

then yesterday plak, mum cooked one of my favourite which is lemon chicken.. fuuhh yummeyyhhh hehehehe i like how sometimes we skip rice n have a different menu.. sometimes lamb n sometimes, like last night, chicken.. so yesterday we had a quarter of chicken each, along with some potato wedges and salads.. sgt2 yummyyy hehehe

can't wait till our new oven arrive.. our current oven dh braper zaman ntah so dat day papa bg green light utk bli baru.. provided (kononnyer) kitorg kne la masak leg of lamb la, roast lamb la etc.. siap sruh kitorg google2 recipe =b but we have other things in mind as well.. which is baking!! i love to bake.. it may not be a hobby that i do that often, but i enjoy it.. i thing the main thing that i don't like about it is that kne kemas before n after tu... sgt2 leceh k.. i remember baking a cake with Jue (ingat x?) hhmm then that means mmg dr dlu minat la.. my sisters n i nk try buat Rainbow Cake!! we tried Rainbow Cupcake a few weeks ago, tp manis sgt.. not just the cheesy icing but the cake itself.. so now dh tau nk agak2 the amount of sugar, as well as change icing tu sket.. less sugar n it'll be icing sugar instead of castor..

our cupcake plak trial n error in terms of rupa.. the layers was so thin it ended up mixing with each other a bit so xnmpk ade 6 layers (i noe rainbow ade 7 layers tp kitorg buat 6 jer).. but colourwise cantek la (eceh puji cupcake sendiri muahahaha) nmpk cm kek lapis pon ader gk heheheh xsabar for our 2nd attempt =D

Let's Go And Have Our Family Vacation!!!

2012-01-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

i'm so freaking excited... and no, not cuz of a confirmed vacation, but from seeing pics of it huhuhuh browsed Groupon today and they had this awesome place in New Zealand n it's totally breath-taking.. weird enough that i didn't answer New Zealand when Jue asked me the question, but owh well... go here to check out the deal.. the rooms looked A-mazing and i'm completely in love with the scenery from the pictures they have there.. off course they could edit or photoshop the pics and stuff, but i'm totally sure that the real view would be much more better... few pics from the site it self, n i dare u to tell me u don't feel like going there =b

n here are some pics of Waiorau Homestead from the voucher..

don't they look heavenly? hehehe the only problem now with New Zealand is of course the frequent earthquakes that are happening there.. it says from Google Maps that it's a 5 - 6hrs long drive so should there really be an earthquake if we were there, i'm not so sure how we'll be effected.. but nevertheless, i'm definitely putting this down in my bucket list..

Thrifty? Frugal?

2012-01-09T17:22:00.000+08:00

so based on my so-called financial planning, konon nk bli rumah in 2015.. hutang keta tinggal lagi 2 yrs so should be able to pay off sumer by Nov 2013.. then most probably nk rest for a year, n splurge my money on other things before taking on a house loan (mcm pnh mention kn, but who cares).. tp the problem with this kinda planning, kite xder set much limit on normal spending.. at first mmg la ade setkn amount for monthly savings, but slalu xikot plan.. konon nk spend wisely, tp end up slalu guner duit savings.. my major weakness?? off course la food.. rs satu family kite tu dh well aware with my weakness ni.. asal je kluar, nk mkn best2 (pastu complain gemok?) n if tau my money tu spend on what xper gk.. ni tiber2 tgk dh short on money n it's only been 4 or 5 days since dpt gaji? haishh teruk btol.. take this month for example, cuti 5 hari b4 new year tu je dh 'hilang' duit.. n with my 'short-term-memory-loss', kite blh recall sket jer n xtau lg rm200 tu spend on what.. huhuh xpe2 abaikn..

so even tho xder azam br nk spend WISELY, but off course kite slalu set myself to never overspend.. or spend within limit (even tho sometimes terpakai duit savings).. so if gaji seribu, biarlah guner the whole seribu, jgnla hutang2 guner credit card n all.. but if possible, save la sket kn.. tp this year plak, i was introduced to groupon.. actually dh lamer dgr but xpnh tau ade malaysian version (tau famous kt US jer la).. last week ade bli satu voucher.. foot spa, konon birthday present for my mum n sister.. dh sruh my sis amek cuti on the 30th, tp blom booking lg.. voucher tu 71% off so dpt RM15 for a 1hr foot soak & masque.. terexcited la plak.. pastu ni jap ni br nmpk facial plak.. izad minat facial so ingat nk blikn utk dier (oops dh xsurprise dh) hehehe but we'll see how.. izad nk x?

n speaking of groupon, jue ade usha2 for Bali vacation.. which made me think of our overdue family vacation... haishhh if only kitorg blh withdraw our ASB n guner utk cuti2 kn best =b blh x papa? n if kne tunggu izad keje, then hopefully izad dpt keje cepat yer ehehehe in our mind, nk gi New Zealand sbb nk choose tpt yg scenery cantek2.. n plus, izad nk tgk hobbits hahahaha but then tgk shaytards gi skiing pon mcm best gk.. so mama nk gi Alps Switzerland tu, blh la mskkn dlm list.. papa plak dr dlu nk gi Morocco... sbb? gi pasar malam die n mkn kambing yg die slalu nmpk dlm tv tu.. haishhh hahaha but whereever we go, mcm best jer buat roadtrip cm izad buat with her friends kt Aussie tu.. nk drive down the road n enjoy the view.. plus blh stop2 tepi jln amek pic.. haaahh best nyer.. n then if dpt gi Disneyland lg best gk.. kitorg gi time kecik2 dlu so mmg xingat ape2 sgt la kn.. the closes we can get will off course be USS, but that's another story...

kuat daydream ni, nmpk sgt xder keje kn.. the first week of the year has been quite ok to me.. i've managed to do what i wanted to do, maybe not as good as i expected it to be.. but good enough for starters..i've got something new that i enjoy doing.. and i hope i could see results pretty soon.. just gotta keep going on for these couple of weeks n i hope i don't fall back..

ok dh malas nk tulis.. got some ideas in my head last week but since i didn't write it down, it kinda evaporates into thin air so i'm kinda scrapping the back of my mind for it again.. =b byeeeee

Haisshhh

2012-01-06T08:19:00.000+08:00

motif nk mengeluh kuat2? hhmmm remember this? my eyes dh start twitching again.. rase annoying jer... n mate same lak tu, yg kanan.. dh 1 week kot, hopefully stop cpt ler.. plus ngn pening2, xtau la sbb glasses ke ape, tp sgt xselesa huhuhu dpt verbal approval from boss nk cuti 16th n 30th.. saje2 cuti cuz ade 5 hari carry forward yg nk kne hbskn by end of march, so baek amek cpt2 nnt teroverdose bler end of yr mcm last yr =b

anyway, since it's january, all my tv series will be back up... hopefully ade sambung Gossip Girl, Psych n Leverage.. Glee dh krg tgk sbb mcm kurang feel jer dh lagu2 die =b the best song in the series will be Keep Holding On, rsnyer tu yg dorg nyanyi for Quinn.. sgt2 sweet n blh nangis =b

haishh xder idea nk tulis ape.. thinking of Bali in June... with June? hehehe mcm interesting, we'll see how it goes.. tau2 jerla ngn mak kiter tu cmner right.. plg xphm (n xpuas hati) kitorg dh adult kot (even tho perangai still bdk2), perlu ke nk question lg? kite xleyh bygkn in 5 yrs time bler kitorg dh 30, still cmni lg ke? or mungkin it'll end bler dh kawen? haiishhh whatever.. xguner gk pkir2, things never change (terpoyo la plak jap)..

ok, dh mls nk tulis (ptt post on the 5th lgpon), cya soon...

Mari Menulis

2012-01-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

Yer, post sblm ni pendek mungkin sbb xde bende nk citer kn? ke nk kite letak pic muke kite tempek2 ngn facial mask? =b

hhmm thn ni mcm nk btol2 plan gi cuti.. thn lps konon nk gi johor tp xjd.. ade ape je pn kt sane kn, tanya kin pon die xtau hehehe so kitorg decide nk gi johor lps Legoland dh siap nnt.. at least ade gk tpt nk gi kt sane nnt kn.. n since Yana nk kawen march ni, izad ajak gi cuti kt cherating.. tp mama plak nk gi spore or solo (ke ape tah name tpt tu, kt indonesia) so xtau la jd ke x.. Family vacation tp xde mama? mmg xknla kn.. n thn ni gk kitorg berangan nk gi USS lg sbb xpuas dlu2 tu.. nk gi weekdays n hrp2 xramai org so blh naek sumer rides n xyah nk beratur pjg2 =) tp berangan jer la sbb tgk ade budget ke x.. dh tulis plan cantek2 pon duit blh hilang kn.. hampeh jer (n still xpuas hati smp skrang tau izad, mane gi duit sy?!?? hahahah)

owhh n isinin lps 1st time cuci keta sendiri hahaha slalu papa yg cucikn, n pnh tolong skali dua jer.. skali dua jer? sbb kdg2 papa buat weekdays time org keje, or if weekends pon, pg2 time org still tido? so rs, ade ke nk gi bgn n cuci? =b tp thn ni, kater nk tukar mindset kn (muntah jap), so bgn pg ske n cuci keta, luar n dlm.. n sbb papa gi maen golf, dptla buat sorg2 hehehe tp setakat tu jer la yg rajin, xderla smp nk tolong cuci persona skali (tp papa dh cuci luar, tinggal dlm jer blom) haishh... pastu? exercise la ape lg =b utk beginner, kite rate 4/10 hahaha mmg semput hbs tp mcm xbyk buat.. thn ni br je 3 hari, but so far xtertinggal pon (bangga jap).. tunggu smp hujung minggu ni, ade lg ke bende nk dibanggakan nnt? =b

ermm itut, next post kiter buat rojak but lbh kpd bm la yer =b

p/s: i know it's no fairytale, i just hoped that things would be better.. miss u

Happy New Year!!!

2012-01-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

a.k.a Selamat Tahun Baru!!! haishh ade org tu suruh tulis dlm BM la plak.. sbb penat nk translate? err xtau ke "I sound stupid in malay" muahahaha baeklah, kiter akan usahakan *wink*..

miss u guys =)

Year In Review: 2011

2011-12-31T09:47:00.004+08:00

wasn't so sure how to do this.. thought of having small flashbacks of the most memorable or sweet or random memories per month, that'll be proper right? but my memory ain't that good =b i'll just try to list down things i remember, but before i do that, i would wanna give a speacial honour of having the first mention to the best memory of 2011... that would be the wedding of my best friend, Jue!! hehehe i know i didn't blog about it much cuz my laziness came flooding ever since then, but it was the sweetest memory for this year.. it really made me realised how grown up we are and how far we've come since we first met was back in 1995.. it was a slow week cuz we didn't do much, but the more i think about it, the more it makes me appreciate them more, especially after the conversation i had with my little sister yesterday =b anyway, besides being the big day for my bestie, it was also the first time the three of us (me, Jue n Kin) was back in labuan together, at the same time, ever since 1998... otherwise, it'll be me with jue or kin with jue.. definitely something exciting and sentimental to think about hehehehe 2012 will be the year for Kin, so will 2013 be mine? *gag* ~~padahal, i was the one engaged first to my prince charming kn korg?~~ hahahaha anyway, apart from the above, few things i could remember about this year....

the day i lost control of myself and went balistic.. it was hedious n one that i hope NEVER EVER happens again..

work-wise, among the best experience i could have hehehe weird but it's true.. stressfull, tiring but fun at the same time..

managed to go on a short vacation with my sisters to Bandung.. i know i rate it bad, but it's more of the fact that we went on a vacation than the place itself that made this point on my list hahahaha

family dinner esp at Le Meridien and Marche' =b (just cuz it involves the two things i love the most, family and food)

the moment i was obsessed with the Shaytards..

@RayWJ followed me on twitter and getting a reply from @Lisa_Nova (i'm a geek, so what)

Going to a Westlife concert and watching them perform Tell Me What Makes A Man live!!!

Paid off my car loan for a year and counting down the days when i could afford a house muahahaha

and yes, from today onwards, i'm flushing "New Year Resolutions" down the toilet... the hell with it, i never do them anyway, n i won't live another year being reminded of my lack of accomplishment.. like i said in one of my previous post, i do have goals, but it's more like a change of living.. i'll just go with the flow this time.. i'll just do what i do the best i can (sgt2 poyo), but whatever..

so Happy New Year!! may 2012 be a better year for everyone.. cheers!!

Quote of the Week

2011-12-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

"Once you start to dislike someone, everything they do begins to annoy you."

Hotlink Sucks Big Time!!!

2011-12-20T11:35:00.001+08:00

***update: it turns out, it wasn't my 3G.. i checked my balance just now n was left with only RM0.79!!! what the fuck?? so i called Hotlink again, n they said that it has nothing to do with my 3G, but my data service instead.. Selvi (or someone with that similar name) gave me totally the wrong info, n although it's only RM2 that was cut, it's still an error on their behalf.. why should i be paying for their mistake?? what if i still had RM20 in it instead n by the time i check my balance, i'm left with nothing.. will it be my fault?? do i have to bear the consequences?? is it my job to constantly check my balance when they are suppose to be giving good service?? it's official, i'm changing to another telco this thursday n hoepfully won't be goin through the same thing***

this long weekend, i'm gonna go hunting for a new n better telco service.. i've been using hotlink/maxis ever since i first got my own hp back in form 5... Hani changed to Celcom, so i'll go see what options i have.. i've never really got a problem with Hotlink before, it just started since i got my Blackberry...

when i first bought my phone, i took the package that came with it where i had to pay about RM200 a month for my postpaid, RM120 for unlimited BIS (internet) and RM80 for call/sms charges.. but even so, it' wasn't a fixed rate cuz i ended up paying like RM220 a month or so due to some charges that i dun really understand... ok i admit it might be ignorant on my part not to question each of the detail but procrastination has always been my middle name.. so after a year, i decided to change to prepaid.. mainly cuz i barely use the RM80 cuz i dun call n rarely text (there's no one to contact anyway), n we got unifi at home n i've been using wifi most of the time.. so to continue paying RM200 for something i don't fully utilise is of course a waste of my money..

so then i went to TTDI Maxis centre and changed to prepaid.. i had a plan n i thought it was straight cut, top up RM60 a month, use RM20 for internet n the remaining for call/sms (n since i only contact my family, i use whatsapp most of the time) so RM60 a month is more than enough.. but then my credit starts to reduce everytime my BIS expires.. weird thing is it kept going up and down... and yes, i continue to procrastinate to go to any maxis centre and enquire about it.. but today, i had enough!!

i woke up yesterday n read a text msg saying that my BIS had expired.. fine by me.. i checked my credit n there was about RM13++ left.. then i turned off my wifi (cuz that was my previous theory, my credit reduces cuz my wifi is on).. then later the day, i text my sisters (one using hotlink under my active10, n another using Digi) n by the time i left the office on my way to the train station, my credit was RM8.43!! this was after i text them less than 10 times.. then at the train station, i texted them a once each n did a quick check after each text... i was charged 1cent for a text to Digi, but RM1 for a text to a hotlink number under my active10.. what the fuck??!! so yeah, i had RM7.33 left after that.. then at home when i checked again, i had RM7.93... dude that's messed up... n this morning at the train station, i had RM3 only!!

i felt like punching someone so i called hotlink and asked why is my credit reducing from RM13 to only RM2++ when i just sent out total of 11 text msges.. turns out, i had to manually deactivate my 3G.. all these while, after turning off my wifi, n not using my internet at all, i was charged cuz my 3G was still on!! RM10 gone just cuz of this little information i wasn't made known.. is it just me, or does this kind of information should be communicated to customers? when i asked the person at the maxis centre, so now i can just use the monthly BIS by goin to *100# right? should the person let me know that yes, but after every BIS expiry, u'll need to deactivate your 3G otherwise u'll still be charge.. well, thanx a lot, for not letting me noe about this..

owh right, either they managed to get another RM1 before i deactivated my 3G, or deactivating my 3G cost me RM1... whatever it is, they're definitely on my bad side now.. maybe this could be solved if i still continue using my Nokia 3315?? no internet charges whatsoever, no 3G shit n all right? =b i'm outtie... Bye

The Year Is Ending

2011-12-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

and sooner than we realise.. December is a lazy month for me when it comes to blogging.. it pretty much started towards the end of November, n i still don't have that writing bug so i'm just gonna leave it at that.. won't really sqeeze my mind to think of something, or even so force myself to put in the effort.. i might just leave it at that for a while till i really feel like so.. long weekend coming up soon.. will bury myself in a bunch of books most probably.. currently got my 17th Stephanie Plum at hand.. then next month i'm gonna buy myself a handful of Agatha Christie's Hercule Poirot series.. it's like a competition between these authors.. which book can i get the most.. the race is pretty much a three way race between Janet, Jodi and Agatha, but Jodi is like a shared thing between me n my lil sis...

so yeah, pretty much got that covered, so won't be writing much till new year perhaps? maybe teeny weeny things here and there, but nothing major.. so don't miss me =b (as if)

p/s: Merry Christmas and Happy New Year just in case i won't be back within this year =D

Randomly Ad-Hoc

2011-12-07T16:37:00.000+08:00

Owh muffin top,

you have just gotta stop,

you're presence is unwelcome,

you need to go back to where you're from.

i'll try to vanquish you,

but it's kinda hard for me to do,

with guidance and determination,

i'll make sure i follow through my mission.

Dropping By

2011-12-06T14:40:00.000+08:00

don't have anything on my mind that i feel like writing of at this moment.. mood malas =b

looking forward to spend some time with my sisters... nk gi karok this friday weehoo!! then hopefully maen bowling on saturday after our class.. n bodek2 mohsin ajak karok ngn kazen2 plak muahahaha tp kak long xder la plak, shud be ok kot...

owh well.. been chillaxing at home n managed to finish another Agatha Christie book.. i'm loving my Hercule Poirot series.. now reading Tuesday with Morie.. so far a good read.. that's all =b toodles..

1 Down, 2 More To Go

2011-11-24T09:54:00.000+08:00

time pass by so fast, and without me conciously realising it, it's already 2 years since i started working here in Maybank.. it's also been a year since i took my car loan, so that means i have another 2 more years to go before i'm debt free!!! owh yeahhh sy xsker berhutang =b debt free is the way to go, like what Shaycarl & Kaitilette will say =b but that usually work when u're swimming in cash... we borrow or take loan, cuz we have no choice, but that doesn't mean we're not spending wisely right?

i've never really been the one who is so particular about money.. not totally obsess with it, but doesn't mean that i don't love it (muahahaha mata duitan btol) i won't go so far and say that i'm a wise spender, cuz sometimes i could be an impulse buyer.. but i'm proud to say that i've never been over the top with my spendings, and pay for things with money i don't have.. i agree with the shaytards that credit card is bad for u (even before i knew about them, so not exactly copy cat hehehe) but i won't cancel my credit card because i need it.. i dun carry a lot of cash in my purse, simply because i tend to use any money i have in it as quickly as i blink, so a credit card helps me pay for things when i don't have cash in hand.. yes there is debit card, but for some reason i like to use my credit card.. points perhaps? anything i swipe, i make sure i actually have money to pay for it, either in my 'spending account' or 'saving account' hehehe

anyway, got out of the topic a bit there =b so yeahh another 2 more years to go, and that car is completely mine.. i'm planning to maybe take a rest for about a year, and then get a housing loan hopefully by then.. of course i'll first need to have a house to buy, but i'll think of that later.. i told my dad the other day that i'll have a cap on the price of my future house which is RM1million, and he point blanc laughed at me =( huhuhuh he said u won't get it.. u're salary is not enough huhuhu sedih jer dgr k, even tho he knows more n that's most likely true.. so i sliced my max amount.. on top of that, i'm crazy about saving in ASB just cuz i like to see the amount of dividend i'm getting.. can u hear ka-ching?? heheheh i transfered more than 3/4 of my savings to my ASB n now i feel broke.. but it still haven't stop me from savings hehehe i'm trying to get a head start with my housing loan, so i'm saving now bits by bits to buy a house.. hopefully i'll have enough by then, to pay for my downpayment 1st...

all these money talk make me sound like a material girl right? hahahaha whatever, financial planning is important, don't u think? it may not be a solid or proper planning, but it's what i can do and think of at the top of my head.. maybe i could do better with professional advice so that's welcome here.. but i might not go look around reading about it and do my own research... can i just point out that this post isn't quite how i wanted it to be.. it's supposed to be about my car, and my car only.. but it's like it's been drown with all the money talk =b so i'm gonna end this with 2 pictures of my car in the workshop.. the 1st time my dad took me there for realignment and balancing my car tyres.. this was before my trip to labuan... hehehehe

New Goals

2011-11-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

it's not even December yet, but i've already have a 'new year resolution'.. although i don't think that i'll wait till 1st Jan to start.. cuz i could actually start it now.. so it's like a new year resolution ikot calendar islam.. blh kn? heheheh i think my biggest weakness about these resolutions are always the lack of discipline within me..not only that i'm a super lazy person, i also like to procrastinate so i tend to not get things done accordingly... or in other words, if i have a goal, it might take me to be in a life or death situation before i actually do it hahaha but then again maybe not, cuz getting healthier is more or less a life and death situation, yet i ignore it..

so with all the new goals i have, i will need another main thing for me to push myself, which is to have a higher dicipline within me.. and the way i see it, there's a way for me to achieve it.. which is trying to make it a habit.. out of the various things i've told myself i'll do, there's only one thing that i could think of n see, that i actually follow through, which is drinking more milk... i dun think i've ever drank more milk in my life ever since i made that decision.. cuz really, milk isn't something that i'm fond of.. i only drink milk with cereal n sometimes milk chocolate... but now i'm drinking about everyweek.. yeah it's a small amount, it's the anlene 4X concentration type, so it's rather small actually.. but it's a start for me.. so after dinner, i'll just grab a box n go upstairs n drink.. so in a way, it's like a habit for me..

so now, i'll try to make other things more of a habit for me.. i'll try to be more involve, a little change of attitude here and there, n hopefully, i'll have less things to complain of =b i'll take more efforts at stuff n try not to get all emotional etc... so hopefully, i'll acheive my goals.. will have a 3month checkpoint to see how far i've come.. undecided yet 3 month tu ikot calender islam gak or in march etc hehehe

anyway, wishing all Selamat Maal Hijrah to all =D

MyNews Cafe

2011-11-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

ever since i high skool, i've always walked by this place.. it has lots of franchise from what i know, but never once have i tried it.. went to OU few weeks ago with my lil sis, hunting for dinner... then decided to stop here since i remembered my mum asking about this place, the last time we went to OU together..

i had the cantonese yee mee.. it tasted better than most place, had thick gravy..

izad got the lamb chop.. it was oily tho.. she said it wasn't really oily the last time she ate there.. tasted ok too...

Back After A Long Break

2011-11-22T16:53:00.000+08:00

so i just got back last night from Labuan, reached home at about 9:20pm.. super exhausted even though there wasn't much that i did.. might take a rest this week and blog about it later.. wanna steal some pics from jue after her honeymoon or whenever she uploads them.. got my cousin's engagement this weekend and also another wedding.. so will be pre-occupied.. hopefully get to chillax at home on monday (woot!! i love public holidays hehehe)

anyway, don't wanna write much.. just wanna give a shout out to my best fren, congratulations on ur wedding.. alhamdulillah, it did go well, even tho i noe ko penat sgt kn.. i wish u all the best living with si lijah tu muahahaha n hopefully u have a happy n long lasting marriage.. sorry i didn't get u anything.. if i knew u wanted rak kasut, kiter dh bli for u =b nvm, i'll try to figure out something later.. bli brg dapur pon bukannyer ko masak kn muahahaha

i love u bestie...

Counting Down The Days

2011-11-14T08:31:00.000+08:00

i'm off to Labuan soon.. so excited to see jue n kin again.. can't really recall when was the last time we met.. most probably when she was here the last time around when we went to Dataran Merdeka.. that was so long.. she's getting married!! weehoo... they grow up so fast =b changed my flight to Thrusday, instead of the planned Tuesday.. then will be back here on Monday.. hope everything goes well for her.. she put in a lot of effort for her wedding, i could only wish i could do more for her..

owh well, just a quickie... need to find a suitable tudung for my baju kurung that i planned to wear on her wedding, then need to pack.. then on Wednesday, shopping with lil sis for J card day woot!! woot!!

i'm outtie...

ShaveDay.. Goodbye BeardTard

2011-11-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

you've got the moves and the skill,

you're on a mission to kill,

the world is sunshine, you're P.D.effin' Precious,

Hey, you're always making my day,

hey, and i just wanted to say,

thank you Shay, and Kaitilette, Sontard and Princesstard,

and Babytard and Rocktard, and Malachi the dogtard too.

and as promised, the moment we've all been waiting for, after loosing 50 pounds (80 pounds in total actually), Shay has finally shaved off his beard... i must admit, his beard has become one of his trademark, cuz even his some-what logo of his head has the beard.. but it's fun to watch him experiencing this... look at the freaking difference between before and after..

amazing right.. dedication and hardwork.. something i wasn't really about heheheh no worries Shay, what i've always learn from watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch is that "Hair grows!!" hehehe and that's what i keep telling myself whenever i decide to cut my haif after keeping it for so long.. it's kinda weird seeing him without the beard after being accustomed to it for so long.. it's true, Rocktard may not recognise him heheheh fun fun fun with the Shaytards =b

i wonder how can we sing NicePeter song "cuz your beard is awesome" when he has no beard...

Nothing Is Greater Than Knowledge Except for Wisdom

2011-11-10T11:12:00.000+08:00

title sedikit poyo muahaha this will be a short one..

so last week as i said, was a chilled week for me.. took the day off on Monday, came to office on Tuesday but my boss wasn't, had course on Wednesday and Thursday, then came to office on Friday... see how chillaxing that is.. this week is somewhat the same too in a sense that is replicates last Tuesday.. my boss is not in cuz she's away.. Monday was a public holiday.. had a nice Raya with the family along with the bbq.. no pics, sumer busy makan.. usu had not one, but TWO birthday cakes heheheh one from us and another from her husband.. i love seeing her expression when we presented her with the 2nd cake..*epic winning* hehehe but then when we wanted to give the cake to opah, we noticed her crying.. she said she was thinking of atok, since it's their youngest child birthday huhuhuh so touching... pics of cakes later sbb dlm camera.. what i wanted to post was just 2 pics of the meal i had during my course hehehe

the course was held at Ritz Carlton and was interesting.. it had it's dry moment but more than half of the part i could relate to a bit, thanx to the IIF Conference slide i had to do =b i think if i had course everyday of everymonth, i could gain like 10kg of weight hahaha nto cuz of the knowledge that's pouring in my brain, but cuz of the food we ate. we ate 4 times k, with the tea breaks in between.. but off course i tried to eat as less as i could, only eating the heavy lunch.. lunch was served at either Shook or GonBei n we went to Shook for both days cuz they dun eat Japanese food huhuhuh in Shook we had two choices to choose from..

i had this on the first day.. it's fish with some yellow sauce and mushrooms.. it was yummy, fish was nicely cook, n the sauce was tasty.. not so sure what it was though.. it was served with some side dish and dessert.. there's ceaser salads, tomato soup, eggs, mashed potato and watermelon.. then the dessert was like bread pudding.. the whole meal was nice (except i dun like tomato soup), but was too full to finish everything..

then the next day they were serving the same thing, so i chose spaghetti instead.. the spaghetti was just normal, would prefer my mums' or Kenny Rogers one instead.. served with soup (dunnoe what soup), calamari, small toast with mushroom, tomato with cheese, olives, and something like tiramisu for dessert.. if i had to choose, i'll prefer the first day meal better..

i ate this during my coourse, so i didn't know how much it'll cost so i could benchmark whether it's worth it or not, but if it doens't cost that much n u had to choose, i'll suggest the 1st one.. for a person who doen't really like fish (except when eating fish & chips), that meal is not bad...

New Show to Follow

2011-11-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

owh yeahh got a new tv serires to follow... previously, i was obsessed with leverage (still am) and since that's been at rest for the moment, i'm looking for other shows to watch.. i'm still with Gossip Girl, Glee and Psych (besides Leverage).. i've dropped OTH completely for about 2 or 3 seasons already, but might wanna catch the last season cuz Tyler Hilton will be in it.. and now i've got New Girl starring Zooey Deschanel, that quirky, lovable girl.. and yes, that's still how her character is in the show =D it's so fun to watch, but i think it's a 30mins show instead of an hour.. owh well, that's enough for me..

there are others that i do enjoy watching but don't follow frequently like the ones i mentioned.. what tv shows do u watch?

What Is Marriage Worth To You?

2011-11-08T16:06:00.000+08:00

isn't it funny that E! still airs Kim's (so-called) Fairytale Wedding after she filed for divorce.. maybe they were having high hopes that she'll last as long as Khloe did.. but that would be better then her filing for divorce before they air the show right? hahaha that would be hillarious.. so yeah, in the midst of it all, i can't help but wonder, what does marriage mean to u?

off course the answer differs among us, n most probably, it has some similarity.. i won't argue that most people marry for love.. but what makes it different, is how long and happy will it last.. what makes u stay and hold on, what makes u give it all up together and say it's over... is marriage just a 'thing' u go through in life? or is it something really sacred..

many questions that don't have a definite answer.. i guess it all comes down to the individual themselves to define it... there are some that say it's sacred, that's why there's the whole ceremony and celebrating the day, it's official, 'i'm stuck with u'.. there are some that don't see the point of it.. there are couple who's been together for the longest time and don't think a piece of paper could make a difference...

but really, is marriage something that u wanna do today, but may not want to tomorrow.. is it that easy to end it? and let's just put kim's case aside cuz frankly, u can't have a reality show n not make people think that ur marriage is a publicity stunt.. i mean come on, what would u expect? u had a full 4 hours of a show just to show the 'drama' of it.. so yeah, with that aside, what about ur everyday person? what about us muslims? i'm not sure about other religion, but i haven't heard that if they say 'i'll divorce u' then that's the end.. i mean some poeple need to go to the court and file for divorce and the 2 will need to sign papers and only then will it be official.. but (correct me if i'm wrong), us muslims, once the husband utter those words, then u're more or less already divorced.. there is the whole process of going through court and all, but u can't stay with each other right? so in that case, how easy is it to just say those words and end something sacred? and through it all, what makes a long lasting happy marriage...

words are a powerfull tool.. use them wisely..

You Are Now Watching The Shaytards Vlogs!!

2011-11-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

just sit back, relax, follow along,

do the thing Shay says, do the thing Shay does,

with his cool family and just because,

his kids are P.D.effin'.P,

a daily vlog for two years are you excited for three?

we're ready for a video so let it be clear,

hey!! he's vlogging here...

one word.. obsessed!!!

i'm so in love with this family (other than mine of course), they make the Kardashians look pathetic (or not hehehe) it helps a lot to have adorable kids, no matter how obnoxious they can be.. and now, the vlogging thing has extended to the other tards, not just Casey n Logan, but also the Moms, Kaitilette, Carlee and Kayli.. watched Carlee's interview with Jackson Harris, so cute hehehe i love a guy who has the kinda stare that can melt u when he sings... and he has that... voice-wise was ok2 jer =b the shaytards were in his Go Crazy video... look it up on youtube.. we don't, we don't, we don't need a reason, to go, to go, to go crazy!!

and now they are coming out with their 2012 calendar which cost about 20 bucks.. but with the currency exchange along with the shipping charges, it cost RM90.. that much for a calendar? we're thinking twice.. although it does sound tempting.. almost as tempting as sending our own pic to them in hoping that the handsome guy in charge of selecting pix, will choose ours... but in the words of Shaycarl, we don't need to buy their stuff just because we like them.. it'll help if we have the money.. he was talking about the tweak shoe but i could relate right?

obviously i have nothing better to talk about right now =b shaytards should get their own labels, don't u think? hehehehe

Open Letter For You, My Friend

2011-11-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

My dearest friend,

i'm so proud of u =D i can't really imagine going through that myself.. i don't believe i'm that strong of a person.. i wish that we were close enough to go through this together cuz let's face it, knowing u from a younger age doesn't gurantee a tight bond (or so i learn).. so words i say could easily pass as being 'polite' =b but really, as u say it, we might not comprehend the extent of what u're going through, the way u're protraying it, and i also don't feel like my efforts of reaching out to you is enough to show how i do care (even the slightest bit)...

as we grow up, we tend to learn more from experience and mistakes we make.. we tend to realise things we didn't before.. we started as being young with great ambitions.. but as time goes by, with reality hitting us hard, we would narrow our scope.. and in the end, to me at least, our ambition is to just be happy with life, satisfy with doing the things we do, and just things we would generally want in life to come about..

i once heard that to learn things in life, look at the cliche'.. cuz as much as those words are always spoken, the truthfullness of them never fail.. things happen for a reason.. that could be your case.. taking the course u're taking might be one of those reason.. u learn things some does not.. and because of the things u learn, u were strong enough to seek help.. u may not fathom it completely, like u say, and neither do we, but it might, more or less, helped u to notice those red flags, to help u avoid doing the unthinkable.. and maybe even, going through this will help u in the future.. ur challanges today could be a reason for u to overcome another challange in the future.. n u'd think back to this day and go "wow, how could i ever overcome this if i hadn't gone through that".. hence another cliche', God has a plan for me (as i always here in Oprah).. and it's true.. God also won't make u go through things He knows u can't handle.. and that's not about being unfair, but about the strength He knows u have within..

having to say all of that, yes i do admit that i myself don't know much about what u're going through, n i could only presume and imagine myself being in ur shoe.. i don't have that feeling of understanding where u're coming from, but that doesn't mean i have zero empathy.. i've always believe in empathy as oppose to sympathy, in which these two are completely different.. but there's also a thin line separating them.. it'll be very hard to tell whether u're feeling sympathy for what someone is going through, or emapathy..in my case, i really do want to feel empathy for u.. i wanna feel ur pain, so i can truly say i understand what u're going through.. n only after having that understanding, will we be able to go through something together.. too many word repetition but i hope u get my point..

and coming back again to my earlier point, we may know each other long, but not well enough (especially with that gap of losing touch) but then again, sometimes u don't need to talk about ur problems to the closest people u know.. sometimes things are more easier to tell a stranger.. that's why we would go see some guy, lie down, n suddenly pour out our soul to them.. we don't always expect them to solve our rpoblem, but we hope it could help ease them a bit.. i just want u to knwo that i could be that person if u have nowhere else to go.. i'm just human, n we sometimes don't know what the right things to say at an awkward time.. but to me, there's two types of people.. those who come to u for advice, and those who wants an ear to hear or a shoulder to cry on.. if u need comforting words, i'll do my best to find ways to make things better.. i can't promise that i could make them go away, but i do hope that i could help.. but if u just want me to know what u're going through, i'll do my best to just understand..

bottomline, no one is alone.. u may think that we don't understand or comprehend the length of ur problem, but believe me, there is someone out there who does.. someone who might be going through the exact same thing u currently are.. u're words of enlightment on this matter have shed a light at some point, no matter from which angle u're looking it from.. i could only wish u're getting the support u needed and want.. the things u're going through now, might slip my mind every now and then, cuz we don't really talk everyday, or everyweek.. but please do not hessitate to 'knock on my door' no matter how random or awkward the situation.. my arms are always open for u.. we'll make the best out of it.. u're too great of a person not to =) i hope u get the happiness u deserve...

-Amethyst-

Quote of the Week

2011-11-03T15:13:00.013+08:00

forgot to scheduled something earlier, so this is actually back-dated....

"Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you with everything they've got" --- Unkwown.

Tazkirah During the Weekend

2011-11-01T17:40:00.000+08:00

enough about food... 4 post in a row, within the same day, all about food.. gler ke ape =b normal kn? hahaha anyway, switching it up a lil bit.. during the weekend, we attended 2 classes with mama.. she usually takes us when she feels a need.. furthest i went was at Rembau, temankn mama utk majlis Syeikh Fuad.. his classes are nice, not allowed to record tho... anyway, besides him, mama also takes us to majlis2 that are for woman only which is usually by ustazah2.. so far, went to Ustazah Alina n Ustazah Halimah.. both from Indonesia (not so sure which part of it)..

so during this weekend, attended two classes of Ustazah Alina.. Saturday kt ttdi, n the other kt BU on Sunday.. on saturday we had Burdah.. die mcm marhabban i think, basically poems or syair by Imam Busairy praising Nabi Muhammad s.a.w... the story behind it is very interesting.. Imam Busairy used to write poems for the kings suring his days.. then one day he thought, rather than doing that, he might as well write praises to Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.. i'm not quite sure whether he was paralysed from the start or later in his years, but point is, one day he dream about Nabi Muhammad coming to him and put a burdah on him (or his legs, i forgot which one) burdah is actually a piece of cloth.. so when he woke up, he was no longer paralyse.. i'm not quite sure if the burdah was there too when he woke up or not, gotta recheck the story.. so yeah that's how it came about, n ustazah Alina really loves her burdah.. on that day, she explained the meanings of the burdah.. i like how one story leads to another, n how it all makes sense..

saturday burdah explanation was mostly about the four things that could 'ruin' us.. i can't find the right words, but basically something like dangerous or bahaya to us.. nafsu, syaitan, bumi n manusia.. so the 2nd burdah was about nafsu.. how it's the most dangerous one among all but the one we love the most among all, cuz it's within us.. she also talked about the different types of nafsu, the lowest being nafsu ammarah bisu (kn izad hehehe) she explained how in the burdah, it mentioned that with all the signs of aging, we don't take that as a wake up call etc.. also the ways to have the upper hand, which is by eating less or make urself feel hungry, and a lot of doa.. hehehe interesting la.. quite long if nk repeat so just writing bits of it to remember..

then on sunday morning was about wudu'.. simple jer, the sunah of wudu' how it starts with niat, and ends with tertib.. the 2nd step which is washing ur face, took long to explain.. n u wouldn't think it's possible at first.. not wudu' but washing ur face could take about an hour + to explain... of course it's cuz there's story behind it... one interesting to point out was how we take our wudu' and what makes our wudu' batal.. very different things.. think of the things that'll batal our wudu' then whe we take our wudu' different parts of the body are the ones we need to cleanse.. so then she told the story of the first sins done by Nabi Adam n Hawa.. how most of the human senses are at our face, i.e. eyes, small, taste.. n that's why we clense our face as away of taking out the sins (ok ayat tu cm klakar but i think u'll get the point).. and also the reason why we cleanse our hands, feet and even the top of our heads.. all that have something to do with the first sin committed which the Nabi Adam and Hawa eating the khuld (btol ke tu?)

she also explained the doa2 (besides the norm) while taking our wudu'... each steps have their own doa.. n that's why ustazah alina say, a less than 3 minutes thing could actually take up to 30 minutes to do properly.. i don't quote this cuz i don't remember it by heart but it does goes a lil' something like this, sabda Rasullullah s.a.w, 'Barang siapa yg memperbaguskan wudu', maka terkeluarlah dosa2 mereka bersama air wudu'.. note to self.. she told other stories as well, n i'm more interested in hearing these stories.. then ustazah Fatimah gave a few words as well on adab.. how Imam Maliki would be the most adab person, n how Imam Shafie learn from him... something like that la..

anyway that's it la... pjg menjela mcm poyo plak hahaha checking my calender to see if i can take some days off if mama wants me to teman her in Dec.. owh and any info above which are not quite right, pls lemme noe and correct me.. bab2 agama sy mmg kureng sgt =b toodles..

Cupcakes Galore

2011-11-01T15:03:00.002+08:00

the title is a bit deceiving but whutever.. big shout out to my frens in Maybank (Hani, Wahida, Ady, Sharul) hehehe thanx a lot peeps, i really2 like it a lot =D we went for lunch at Subway just now, Farah (the new girl) tagged along.. went up the stairs and saw this ot our table...

hehehe my first thought was "hani xmkn lagi ke cupcakes die?" cuz she bought some for her husband as u can see here... so when i took a closer look, it actually say Happy Belated Birthday Inaz *insert skull pic* muahahahah cute.. luv it.. they noe i love anything with skull, even if it looks like 'gigi jongang' hahahaha

ady n sharul xde pic plak... nvm.. thanx again korg =D

owh they're Red Velvet Cupcakes made by Kak Suzy...

More Food!!!

2011-11-01T14:47:00.000+08:00

it's no wonder i'm gaining weight as fast as Kim gets a divorce =b this will just be a short one tho... so, as a Shaytards addict, everything they do gets our attention... even their mac & cheese hahaha izad has been wanting it for some time, ever since she saw Princesstard make some.. so on Sunday, we went to Cold Storage and found one that looks good.. we bought the small packet just to try it out first..

don't have a pic of the packet but it's blue.. it's easy to make.. boil some water n put in the macaroni.. wait till their cook, then drain out the water... while it's hot, add in some margerine, milk and the cheese mix... mix it all together and u get this yummy instant mac & cheese heheheh now, we'll have to buy more so my lil sis won't starve at home =b

then for dinner, i requested mama to cook the Black Pepper Beef.. super yummy (everything is super yummy to me kn? hahaha ) they're easy to make.. u can find the recipe here, just in case muahahahaha

looking forward to mama's rendang ayam this Raya Haji... might be having a bbq to celebrate bday usu woot!! woot!!

Le Meridien, KL

2011-11-01T11:36:00.000+08:00

if u've read this blog a year ago, u might notice this post... we're trying a new family tradition n it's our second time doing it.. it's a 5 in 1 dinner where we celebrate all our 5 birthdays hehehe so instead of having 5 separate dinner (or 4 cuz mama n yaya share the same day n that's usually combined) we're gonna pack all those day to 1 day and have a lavish dinner.. last year we went to Ole-Ole Bali, n this year we chose the Le Meridien.. it's our second time dining here, we went there i think 2 years ago during Christmas a.k.a my parents anniversary n had the best time ever..

Anyway, the parking for both hotels (including Hilton) were full n at first we thought of going to Traders but then we tried to park at KL Central instead.. reached there and thankfully there was an empty table for us =D yeayyy we were super happy to see the buffet table look the same like the last time we came.. how'd we know? cuz at the entrance, we could see the fondue fountain weehoo.. so without further a due, let the pix begin...

first off, we'll start with what i ate, i was too busy eating that i always forget to snap pix.. izad n i went to the bbq section first (i think).. i took 1 chicken, 1 beef, squid n clam on a stick, n hot dogs.. then when i saw that my plate was quite empty, i went to other section n took 1 sushi, salmons, two sea asparagus, more clams and a shrimp.. took tomato sauce (cuz i thought it was chili) n thousand island for dressing.. and walla, u get this..

from my phone

izad's phone hahaha saje jer...

then i had two rounds of dessert... yes2 i know, cepat sgt dh dessert, but i was full up to dat part.. n i know i didn't eat much compare to the previous time i was here.. so for dessert, i had more salmon, arabic bread pudding, fruits and some creamy stuff which had mango cocktail which i dunnoe what it is but yummy... then i had more of that, another piece of watermelon, strawberry fondue and some gummy bears..

then topped it off with some tea

ok done.. now for the fun part... more pics of food..

more dim sum from yaya

tempayaki style beef and scallop for papa (wanted to have the scallop after my 1st dessert but i think they were finish =( that's why i had 2 desserts hahaha)

the bbq section, the first thing on my plate...

cold food.. sushi and salmons were from here..

super cold food? hahah cuz there's ice.. the shrimps, oysters, clams, crabs and sea asparagus.

the selection of bread.. the soft roll was finished when we arrived.. the bread that izad took keras gler..

some of the food behind us that was served along the rice.. the oxtail is in the row but not in the pix.. skipped this section but they had fish, chicken, vege etc...

salads-salads, not for me hehehe dun really like these type of salads.. usually just eat the normal cucumber, tomato n lettuce with thousand island.. simple yet nice..

among the indian style food (i think) that they have.. there were roti canai, capati etc here too.. we didn't had any servings from this section though except the lamb that papa had..

among the sweets and nuts we could have.. the gummy bear was from here.. no m&m though (they had them the last time)

the strawberry on sticks, ready to be covered with chocolate

the captivating chocolate fondue fountain (u're welcome to drool)

while waiting for coffee and tea, we played with our gummy bears hahaha put a stick behind their backs then make them walk about =D

well that's it.. hope u enjoy the pics... if u could eat a lot and have extra2 money u feel like splurging , this place is highly recommended... total damage for this buffet for 5? ermm bout RM600++ (including tax)... shocking? we all had heartattacks the first time here too hahahah thank you papa for the lovely dinner hehehe looking forward to our next one =b
up to this i was starting to get full, but not quite yet.. we tried not to eat much during the day so i just munch on cheerios.. but then we went for Burdah with Ustazah Alina and the house served yummy food so we ate super2 a bit.. 1 plate share 4 ppl tau... but it was already 5pm ++ at that time, about an hour ++ till our dinner... bad timing *sigh*.. anyway, went to the dim sum place next and had these two super yummy dim sum (i already ate one before remembering to snap a pic =b ) and one oxtail...

Vicchuda, Kota Damansara

2011-11-01T10:39:00.000+08:00

just a short review.. writing on another one as i type here which is way wayy better hehehe.. so last week was a bit like a rest day for my mum.. tok was in town after visiting my uncle (omg i completely forgot to mention that my uncle's house in Johor caught fire huhuhu) so papa send tok back that monday and stayed overnight there.. which, in our house means, no cooking hehehe yup, we usually eat out if papa is not around, so mama won't have to cook.. so that night we ate at Vicchuda Restaurant at Kota Damansara.. we weren't so sure what to eat, cuz Santai was close on Monday.. then mama said she wanted food like meehun soup or tom yam etc, so izad mentioned about this place... at first glance the place look ok, maybe not an A+, but maybe a B..

went in and ordered our food..

we had Tom Yam campur.. this was for 3 ppl, but after dh amek2 la... nmpk sket sgt compare if bli separate for 3..

then izad ordered ayam masak merah...

we had kangkung goreng for our veg...

the sotong tepung sounded yummy so we ordered that and xsangka byk gler huhuhuh

and also telur dadar (no pix, telur dadar biasa jer so use ur imagination k hahaha)

overall the food was ok, biasa2 jer.. the tom yam was better than the one we had at Bangkok Express.. along with 4 drinks, the total damage was about RM63... will i go again? nope, cuz the place a bit dirty.. mcm xsapu sgt... my theory? cuz sumer pekerja lelaki muahahaha =b

Quote of the Week

2011-10-27T08:00:00.001+08:00

"In your face, suckers!!!" --- Amethyst

=b i was modest about it, but i celebrated the 6-1 in my own way.. now i feel like watching my dear Charlie Hunnam in Green Street...

Maybank 2011 Kolam Competition

2011-10-26T08:08:00.000+08:00

Happy Deepavali to those who are celebrating it... just a short post.. Maybank had its kolam competition last week.. Thana, Haiza & Sharul represented our dept.. went to watch the end result after lunch n here's just some pics of those that i managed to capture..

the winning kolam

kolam by the three

Food Are Like Drugs

2011-10-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

they're super addictive.. especially when they look like this..........

the yummyness of the Kicking Shrimp.. oofff it taste superbly good.. i can finish 2 all to myself =b

not forgetting the ribs (yummy) and fillet tenderloin (not so yummy) served with mashed potatoes and fries..

and also the 1/2 bbq chicken (yummeyh) served with mashed potatoes and fries too...

and just like drugs, indulging urself to this highness could get u broke =b but it's still worth it... shayloss what?? ppffttt the hell with it.. u only have one life, u might as well have fun with it hahahaha

brought to u by Tony Romas, RM 172 including 3 drinks =D

Zero

2011-10-24T11:49:00.000+08:00

excuse me for the lack of updates lately... i just don't feel like writing much =b

Real Steel Review

2011-10-20T14:59:00.039+08:00

Awesomness!!! went to watch this movie last tuesday night with my sisters and cousins.. n it's one of the best.. Real Steel is basically bout robot fighting starring Hugh Jackman and Dakota Goyo taking the role as Charlie Keaton and Max Keaton respectively..

apparently human boxing has become irrelavant as spectators want more action and entertainment n robots gave them the option of fighting till the end (i.e. till the death). The two main characters stumbled into a sparring Generation 2 robot named Atom and as a former boxer himself, Charlie trained Atom to be a fighting robot.. i like how the movie unfolds n the story doesn't seem to slow down.. it keeps the energy going, with Max providing the most entertaining moment.. the graphics of the robots are A-mazing and the fights seems so real with the sound effects and all..

another ups for this movie is that it doesn't have that sappy romantic storyline most movies seems to have... even the scenes about the father and son relationship was kept to a minimum, with just enough human touch.. cuz frankly speaking, if i wanted drama, i would go watch a dramatic movie and not Real Steal... hope i didn't give too much away but this is definitely a must-see movie.. i rate it 9/10 n would definitely watch it again.. after watching the movie, mohsin said he felt like punching someone hahaha and it's true.. the movie gives u so much energy, u can feel it even after it ends... so go watch it now...

Quote of the Week

2011-10-20T09:00:00.005+08:00

"Compassion is the basis of morality" --- Arthur Schopenhauer

James Franco

2011-10-18T14:37:00.000+08:00

it's like i'm in high school all over again here,
all those years of growing up seemed to just disappear,
i'm sitting in this corner, trying to hold back my tears,
waiting for you to come save me, my dear.

he was in my mind when i thought of this, i know it's random...

I'm Lost For Words

2011-10-18T11:18:00.002+08:00

updates: it was reported that the woman pulling the kid to the side went and searched for help after doing so... kudos to u then.. appologies for not knowing so earlier... read a report from CNN here..

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it's all over the Internet and it's heartbreaking.. it's devastating.. it's shocking.. it gets u sad and so angry... a 3 year old child was run over by a van.. but not your typical hit and run case cuz the people walking by just ignored her.. how could u walk-by, see a child laying on the ground helplessly, and just walk a way?? how can u fucking walk away from that?? it's inhuman!! and she was still freaking moving!! clearly she's alive and should be saved immediately.. pulling her to the side? what good does it do? a simple phone call would do.. even an anonymous one.. at least get her some help.. *sob sob* Watched it with my lil sister yesterday.. it's very disturbing to know such people exist in this world.. didn't catch it on news, but papa said she survived but is in very critical condition.. i hope she lives a healthy and happy life.. i noe it's doubted, but i hope she won't grow up and see that video as she'll be traumatic enough surviving it.. to know that there was at least 5 people who walked on by and did nothing, it's just not right..

what have we become?

The Little Things

2011-10-16T11:32:00.012+08:00

I've always been a sucker for little things.. i tend to appreciate them more.. to me, sometimes small gesture could go along way n have a greater impact on you.. i guess i'll look for that in a relationship.. people who appreciates little things..

up to now, i think the sweetest thing my whole family has done for me was during one of my birthday.. n i've had massive birthdays before, dated way back in London when i had my party in McDonald's.. i remember having Laura as my birthday gift (that's a dolls' name to those who don't noe hehehe) i've had other moderate celebrations with friends.. n not forgetting those usual birthdays when nothing seems to be a big deal n everything in life seems to go on normally..

but to this day, i think there's one that'll stick on my mind, for as long as i will remember (pretty sure i've mentioned this previously) it was the day we decided to have a simple lunch at Dave's Deli OU.. normal place to eat n nothing special about it.. but that day, we all wore purple.. my dad had his purple shirt on, my mum wore her purple baju kurung, n my 2 sisters were wearing purple tops.. Izad even went inside the room and asked me to change.. so there we were, in Dave's Deli.. all in purple..

why purple? cuz it's my favourite colour =D i love my family..

RIP Jack Marshall

2011-10-14T08:52:00.000+08:00

*sob sob* first heard about him when i started following Jack Wilshere's twitter.. Jack was diagnosed with a brain tumour at such a tender age and passed away this morning at just 6 years old.. it's such a sad thing to know that there's kids out there dying, and so young too..

Jack Wilshere keeps tweeting pics of them together which is so touching.. an article i read recently made me cry.. will it be a crime posting it here rather than linking it? my blog, my call =b

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Jack Wilshere knows some things ARE a matter of life and death. That’s why he had to help young Jack Marshall

MAYBE it is because he has encountered tragedy in his life before that Jack Wilshere has done what he has done for little Jack Marshall and his family. Maybe it is because Wilshere’s uncle, a young man who was more like a brother to him, was killed in a car crash at just 16.

“I had just played my first game for England Schoolboys and I was so happy and so thrilled,” Wilshere says. “Then we got the news. My uncle was a passenger in a car that went out of control. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me.”

Or perhaps it’s because the Arsenal midfielder, the brightest young talent in English football, has known since the start of the year that he was to become a father himself. Perhaps it’s because since his son, Archie, was born a fortnight ago, he has understood even more keenly just how precious is the gift of life.

“When we got Archie,” Wilshere says, “it made me realise even more what Jack’s family are going through. “Everyone hopes that what has happened to Jack will never happen to their kid. “All I wanted was for Archie to be healthy when he was born but I still worry about him all the time, anyway. “We check him over and over again at night. What’s happened to Jack is every parent’s worst nightmare.”

What happened to Jack Marshall, a beautiful, brave, loving child who has touched many, many people with his courage and his cheerfulness, was a brain tumour. A tumour that transformed him from a carefree little boy obsessed with football in general and Manchester United in particular to a six-year-old kid clinging desperately to life.

What happened to him is that after surviving an operation to remove the primary tumour, he learned to walk again by tottering after a football sent by Sir Alex Ferguson. What happened to him is that the brain tumour, a form of cancer which kills more kids in the UK than any other variation of the disease, began growing and spreading again.

And six months ago, the hospital sent him back to his home in Scunthorpe and told his parents, Tracey and Craig, and his elder brother Josh, 12, that Jack would be dead within days. So while Tracey and Craig have been trapped in a living hell, Jack has defied the doctors’ predictions by fighting on and on. And his parents have devoted every moment to caring for him, trying to make every day special for him, while they watch him fade.

To add to their anguish and for reasons only the kids involved could explain, some local boys have begun to bully Josh since his brother became ill. A couple of months ago, he was beaten up in the local park while he was playing football.

Many people in sport have been kind. Rio Ferdinand helped to arrange a visit for Jack and his family to the Manchester United training ground. Wayne Rooney has worn a Jack Marshall wristband to raise awareness of the prevalence of brain tumours and encourage their early detection. And Serena Williams organised tickets for Jack and his family to meet her at Wimbledon in the summer and watch her play.

Wilshere, though, has been a constant. He might be 19 but he has showed the kind of caring that most people only discover later in life. I have visited Jack Marshall and sat at his bedside and it is not comfortable seeing a child enduring such suffering. It is difficult emotionally, particularly if you have never been close to that kind of pain and misfortune.

The easy thing, particularly for a teenager with the football world at his feet, would be to turn away, to keep the kid at arm’s length. But Wilshere didn’t do that. He became aware of Jack’s plight through Twitter but he didn’t stop at supportive tweets or expressions of concern.

When Jack Marshall and his family made the journey south to watch the tennis at Wimbledon, Wilshere and his mum, Kerry, met them later in their trip and spent a day with them.

“My mum cried the whole way home,” Wilshere says. “There was something about Jack. It’s obvious, I suppose, but his strength in adversity was inspiring.”

Wilshere kept in touch. Aware that the family desperately needed a break from the strain of their day-to-day struggle, he invited them to watch Arsenal in the pre-season Emirates Cup at the end of July. They went round to Wilshere’s house for a barbecue and met Wilshere’s dad, Andy, too. They joked with Wilshere about the sleepless nights he was about to endure with the arrival of his baby.

Their own sleepless nights are different. They get up with their boy in the early hours, too, to give him medicine that keeps him alive. His wakefulness is limited now. Every time Wilshere sees him, he notices Jack is less and less able to talk. Little Jack sleeps most of the day. His world is contracting as Wilshere’s opens up before him.

In mid-August, Wilshere invited Jack and his family down to London again for the Champions League qualifier against Udinese.

And then, when he heard about what was happening to Josh, Wilshere and a friend made the journey up to Scunthorpe and took him to the park to watch him kick a football around. The kid who beat Josh up was there. His mouth dropped open when he saw him hanging out with the man who is tipped by Alan Shearer to be England captain one day.

“Josh is only 12,” Wilshere says. “No kid should have to endure what he has. His brother’s brave and he’s brave, too.”

Tracey Marshall finds it hard to express how much gratitude she feels towards Wilshere.

“Josh will come home and say ‘can I give Jack a ring’,” Tracey says. “If Jack’s busy, he’ll explain to him and say he will call him back. And he always calls back. For me, that is a little bit of light in all this darkness.

“Jack Wilshere has done more for us than he will ever know. When he invited us to London, he gave us the reason and the means to get out and just have a few days away as a family.

“I have told him how much it means to us but I’m not sure if he realises properly. I can’t put into words what he has done.

“Seeing a little child very poorly is not easy. He does not have to do it. He could have looked away. Some people pretend our Jack is just not there but Jack Wilshere has never done that.

“We have seen Josh come in from school really upset and down because of what’s going on. And then Jack has rung and suddenly he has a massive smile on his face. I can’t do that for him but Jack can.”

Wilshere has a tattoo on his wrist as a tribute to the uncle who was like a brother to him. “James Marshall 1990-2006”, it says. “The name’s a strange coincidence,” Wilshere says.

Maybe it’s another reason why he has taken the little boy and his family to his heart.

The truth is, the reason doesn’t really matter.

What matters is that an England footballer who didn’t need to help has given comfort to a family who found it where they had least expected.

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sad, ain't it? huhuhuh

this just shows that above all, Arsenal players are way better than MU players hahahaha

Jack Marshall, u will be missed #Jacksarmy

The Worst Thing To Date

2011-10-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

*sigh* it sucks big time when u think u did everything there could be done to make sure u hand in a proper task, but then in fact u overlooked a couple of thing, that just so happen to be super crucial, and end up handing in something with the wrong info... u'll have two option, to admit ur mistake and be upfront, or leave it as it is n pray that no one will notice.. it doesn't takes a genius to figure out what the right thing to do will be.. but it does takes a lot of guts to do it.. in some cases, i just might have the guts.. but in this case, the extent of the mistake seems too careless to be able to be get up and say it..

even at the start of this phase of life, my dad advised me with something that relates to this.. take whatever they give with the belief that u could do it.. admit ur mistake and take own the responsibility of it *sigh* why do u have to be so true =s might be the worst thing i've done with this job to date..

Quote of the Week

2011-10-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” --- Neil Gaiman

::L-O-V-E:: (lazy post)

2011-10-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

if someone ask you, "are you in love?", what would you say? could you be single and still answer yes?

where should one even begin? it's so subjective.. it's simple yet complicated at the same time.. it's everything jumbled up to one.. everything written here would be from my point of view and scattered.. u may not agree with it, but it doesn't matter.. we don't live the same way, raised the same way.. our perception will bound to be different...

let's face it, there's a whole kinda love out there.. there's blood and there's water... there's the love for ur family and other relatives, and there's also the love for your friends and that certain someone.. i think i could categorise myself as a person who loves her family hardcore, cuz like i always say, i'm obsess with them.. i could barely comprehend working long hours n not spend time with them even when living in the same house, what more living without them.. i have a special place within me for extended families too.. i have horrendous thoughts sometimes, one that i could never utter out loud, cuz it scares the shit out of me.. it dwells up in my head sometimes and although i try to keep it out of my mind, i know it's inevitable..

as for my dearest frens, they'll always have an impact on me.. i've grown throughout the years with frens by my side, no matter how often they come and go, no matter they stay the same or they differ, n no matter how much i tell myself i have none.. truth is, i've always had company.. i wasn't the kid who sat alone in class or had lunch alone.. i wasn't that typical loner u watch in movies.. it's just when i define frens, my definition seems to be deeper than usual.. i tend to limit my labels cuz they're so precious to me.. i've always had a wall.. n i'm selfish enough to want ppl break them to earn that label.. a few have.. maybe not torn down completely, but enough to know there's two sides of me.. the other half maybe not so much known, but definitely not what others see..

is all that love? well, to me it is.. love is a very strong feeling, n that's just what it is.. a feeling.. there's no other way to know it unless u feel it.. it makes things better and could also make things worst... u have a special moment and share it with ur loved ones, that moment will be more meaningful because of their presence and u'll be happier than u'll be with others... then there's time where things don't go the way u plan n ur loved ones hurt u.. the cuts will be deeper n the wounds will heal slower.. it's because u love them so much that makes the pain, sometimes, unbearable.. don't u think? love takes something n times it with 10...

that's why it's a little intimidating for me.. i have my confort zone n i don't put myself out there in fear that i'll get hurt.. i'm more of an observer.. i like to see things from the sideline.. i've observed a number of relationship n manage to have my own definition n view on things.. i can talk a lot about it without experiencing it.. cuz frankly speaking, it ain't easy.. loving ur family, that's kinda easy, for me at least.. but for the other half, that would be a challenge.. maybe cuz i get bored easily.. maybe i'm too picky? but what can i say, i dun like to let strangers in =b

which brings me to another thought on marriage....
what's your take on that?
-lazy post-

Bangkok Express?

2011-10-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

a joke just popped into my head about Bangkok, but nvm just ignore it.. bored, Gossip Girl can't stream so i'm left here writing a bit.. so didn't manage to take my car grant (is that what u call it?) last friday, so i went to take it just now at Wisma Nusantara with Hani n Ady.. went there by cab, then later on went for lunch at The Weld.. my first time there, was an ok place.. we decided to eat at Bangkok Express.. our dishes were simple..

we had Spicy Tom Yam Seafood...

and also Butter Prawn..

forgot to take pic, but we also had some kerabu mangga... total of that along with 2 coconut juice n ice lemon tea cost about rm112.. my take? u could do better.. the tom yam had this sourness in it.. was ok for me but would still prefer my mum's cooking (who doesn't) or my very own.. well, basically the recipe is from her la.. or maybe Santai.. n the butter prawn wasn't really nice.. as u can see, the prawns aren't that big, but i think that's normal? hehehe not sure if it's cuz that's how the Thai cooks it, but if u're looking for butter prawn, that won't be the place to go.. u're better off at a real seafood restaurant.. kerabu mangga was ok, mkn je but not really a fan so can't say much...

so, will i take my family there? nope, would rather take them somewhere else... huhuhuh cm kejam je bunyi =b

Shayloss BootCamp

2011-10-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

can i do it? will i ever do it? i've always hated exercise (u might be able to tell if u read this blog enough)... but let's face it, that's what i need to do, at least abit, in order to stay healthy.. cuz i dun eat healthy.. i just stuff my face with whatever food i can get (or afford) hehehe so maybe baby steps will do.. i know i had a goal of having an hour workout at least twice within this year, n even that seemed impossible.. so taking cue from my milk consumption effort, which i'm doing quite well considering i've only missed about 1 week or 2 in total days, i'm gonna start super slow on this.. n i'm talking super slow, not even a weekly thing..

see this video above (i know, i like to link videos now =b ) well Shaycarl n his frens did this bootcamp n the moves didn't seem that difficult.. it's amazing how he dedicated his time to actually make an effort to acheive his goal.. which reminds me, can't wait for Shave Day hehehe anyway, 4 routines, each takes a minute and 20 seconds of rest in between.. i could do that right? need help with the timing but i really think this is a start.. will try it this weekend (either one day or both) n then we'll see things from there..

although on another note, hula hoop seems much easier right? it's right there inside my room, so what's the problem? huhuhuh what kinda workout do u do?

Westlife Live in KL

2011-10-11T10:59:00.000+08:00

this may be old news but just felt like writing about it now.. so as any 80's baby, i've grown up listening to 90's pop music, especially when boy bands was the 'IT' thing during that era.. so as most of u might noe, Westlife had their Gravity tour and stopped by Malaysia on 7th October 2011.. i took the day off that Friday n went out with my mum n sis.. went for breakfast first then karok with my big sis sbb my lil sis threw a fit (gedik).. went back, got ready n head off to Bukit Jalil.. the traffic was awful, got there after about an hour drive, then made a mistake of parking the car way too far than we wanted..

typical malaysian show, it started about 9:10pm i think instead of the said 8:30pm.. we sat almost close to the stage n had a nice view of them.. can't really tell by the pix tho.. they sang some old hits as well as some new songs... they even did a medley of songs by other singers like Coldplay, Rihanna and Lady Gaga.. to me, that was the highlight of the night hehehe talk about awesomeness..

i would prefer if they sang more of their older hits, but i think they had some albums in between then n now so they had to cover those songs too.. unlike BSB, they went solo for a bit before the concert so they didn't have an album together in between (correct me if i'm wrong).. so they did manage to cover a lot of their old songs, which by far is the best concert i've been to, to date =D still happy i managed to catch Westlife live n hear them sing What Makes a Man, You Raise Me Up, Seasons In The Sun, When You're Looking Like That and also Flying Without Wings.. would've love to hear them sing If Your Heart's Not In It tho... among the best ballads i've heard because of the melody and lyrics.. so heartbreaking if i would've experienced that myself hehehe

so anyway, not much pics but here's what i took... another fave moment besides the medley was during You Raise Me Up n the crowd took out their phones, which was typical during slow songs.. but instead of using their screens, they used the torchlight app i think, cuz the lights were brighter than usual, not dimmed n super pretty.. i was amazed and smiling from ear to ear n found myself captivated in that moment.. truly amazing and beautiful, they looked like stars in the sky just shining away hehehehe

Smile

2011-10-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

I'm on my guard for the rest of the world, but with you, I know it's no good

::Sparks Fly::

Quote of the Week

2011-10-06T08:49:00.000+08:00

As a tribute to Steve Jobs, this week will be a quote from him.. RIP..

"Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on." --- Steve Jobs

Concerts Anyone?

2011-10-05T23:38:00.001+08:00

wouldn't u wanna go to a concert like this? it seems exciting n not just about performing the songs but also about entertaining the crowds and making sure they pay for good experience...

we're seeing Westlife this Friday!! woot!! woot!! jom la Hani hehehehe

Happy Birthday Papa

2011-10-05T01:37:00.001+08:00

my dad is 60!! big ol' SIX ZERO...

let's paarrttaayyyyy hahahaha big shout out to my dearest n beloved dad.. happy birthday and i pray that live a happy n blissful life..u've raised ur girls well n i could just wish that my future husband will be someone that leads by ur example (at least for certain things la hehehe)

we're thinking of a gift for u... Mohsin suggested the 52 degree sand wedge or something like that.. havn't made up our mind, but whutever we get for u, we hope u like it.. i know how u dislike us spending money, but hopefully u can make this as an exception =)

we love u

Abused

2011-10-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

i kicked him in the head and watched him as he bled,

blood running down his nose, bruising legs and broken toes,

it's payback time and revenge is a bitch,

you'll never tame me down, not even one bit,

how you like me now, all charged up and in power,

do you like this little girl, taking you over,

you tried to get up, another blow to the tummy,

you moaned in pain, your eyesight all blurry,
do it to me again, don't tell me i didn't warned you,
this is what you get, after all that i went through,
you think it was over the moment you hit me,
you got it all wrong, i'm no longer that girl, baby,
better luck next time, cuz i ain't looking back,
i'm walking away with my dignity intact.

"A Post About Love"

2011-10-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

Coming soon and up for debate =b

Criminal

2011-10-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

He is a hustler, he's no good at all,
He is a loser, he's a bum,
He lies, he bluffs, he's unreliable,
He is a sucker with a gun,

I know you told me I should stay away,
I know you said he's just a dog astray,
He is a bad boy with a tainted heart,
and even I know this ain't smart,
He is a villian by the devil's law,
He is a killer just for fun,

The man's a snitch, and unpredictable,
He's got no conscience, he got none.

But mama I'm in love with a criminal,
and this type of love isn't rational, it's physical,
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright,
All reason aside, I just can't deny, love the guy.
And he's got my name tattooed on his arm, his lucky charm
So I guess it's okay, he's with me
And hear people talk try to make remarks, keep us apart
I don't even hear, I don't care.

Take It In With Pride

2011-09-30T11:48:00.001+08:00

i remember that day when i cried a little,
i couldn't believe it was true,
i wanted to be someplace else,
but u said "that wouldn't happen to you,"
i was down for a couple of weeks,
everything around me reminds me of it,
nothing can be done, it was all sealed,
my disappointment will never be revealed.

Two Out of Many

2011-09-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

i had nothing better to do.. so sue me!! =b

or maybe this??

Quote of the Week

2011-09-29T15:19:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes you put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down." --- Unknown.

Before Syawal Ends

2011-09-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

we had our raya celebration at our department... it was a modest celebration with good food.. though i didn't eat that much, cuz i was already half full hehehe don't have much pix.. just did a quick snap of the foods that they had, which include rendang ayam, daging, ayam msk merah.. then there were lemang, nasi impit, n also satay... a few deserts as well.. yummeyhh

forgot to take pics of dessert... owh well...

Bad News, People

2011-09-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

my lil just informed us that the Sims aren't working.. some sort of error.. nnnooooo!!!!! how can we live without u????

we have outdoor living and generation to add to that collection

i played last night n everything seemed fine except that the relationship between the mother n the daughters aren't just that.. they've become frens *sigh* i guess that's a hint for a new laptop right? hehehehno money la.. as what my dad will say "save your money for your retirement".. i noe right, i've barely worked for two years n now i have to think about retiring.. n not the relaxing retiring part, it's the where do i get money retiring part =b

whatever it is, i miss u Sims heheheh

Ramblings... and a lil Babytard to go with it

2011-09-27T15:17:00.000+08:00

another day another dollar... been chillaxing, with an empty mind.. feel like writing but nothing is coming.. currently have this cravings for Kickin' Shrimp hehehehe

it taste so heavenly... also still finding some time to slot in our family dining.. went to Istana Hotel website but it doesn't list Chikuyotei as one of it's reataurant anymore huhuhuh will need to call n make sure.. otherwise my heart will be broken... we need our Chikuyotei for our Jap food supplies otherwise it'll won't be the same huhuhuh i already mentioned it to mum n she was very excited about it.. i wouldn't have d heart to tell her if it's true n our restaurant is no longer there huhuhu

will be having our Raya makan2 today at our office.. forgot about it this morning so i didn't wear my baju kurung *sigh* but then raya is not about what u wear right? it's about what u eat hahahaha no? owh well.. didn't play sims last night n was catching up on my Shaytards... babytard seems to vlog a lot now n she sounds so funny... she's trying to sound grown up but is too cute for that =)

owh yeah that's babytard on the cover of James Blunt =) that's my sister

Another Round of Blabbering

2011-09-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

i notice i dun blog at home.. prefer to do it in the office.. hmm wonder why... i hope the amount of post on thursday made up for the lack thereof during the weekend.. been simming a lot, i'm addicted to it once again.. my 1st daughter is a young adult, n turned her imaginary fren to a real boy, my 2nd daughter became a child, n my mother re-married again n they have a son together..carzy!! anything can happen in sims =b next plan is to move out the 'imaginary fren', ask my sis the renovate the house or maybe move them altogether to a bigger one.. but will depend on how much they have.. the new husband just started working.. wanna make the eldest a babysitter, havn't tried that before.. n take my mother to china again for a sparring tournament which i wasn't able to the last time hahahaha (psycho)

on another note, had a good chat my my fren.. i miss her so much.. it's so true, no matter how much life drifts u apart, they're the only person u can honestly rely on.. i was wrong about a lot of things.. it makes u appreciate things more.. cherish the ones we have.. n when i utter words to her, the truthfullness of it just hits a spot.. it becomes so real that it overwhelms u.. that emotional feeling i get all the time, it never fail to make me cry.. n once again, i was that young girl, clinging to u for that happiness u bring to my life.. it's true u do... so looking forward to meet u again =b

here i go again, blabbering *sigh* it's what i do best... hehehe on another boring note, i get all the ALCO hype now.. managed to do two sets of ALCO slides, for the BNM CRR n also the UBS Rouge Trader.. loads of help from my supervisor which i totally respect muahaha still, doesn't mean i've settled.. ok done bye..

finding time to go have our family lunch/dinner (since vacay won't be a show) thinking of Japanses food.. owhh yummeyyhhh =b

Sleepers, One of My Fave Movie Ever

2011-09-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

there are a couple of things a movie needs to have for it to make it on my list.. one of it is off course when watching a movie, i like to have the same feeling i had when i 1st watch it.. so movies that i was really moved by it would be Coach Carter, Slumdog Millionaire, Finding Nemo =b to name a few.. and off course, the title of today, Sleepers.

first watch this movie way back in Labuan n totally fell in love with it.. lots of stars in the movie but i think it's a lil underrated.. Kevin Bacon is in it weehoo perhaps the only movie with Bard Pitt that i love.. hehehe i guess i've always had a thing about tortured souls and revenge..i like the way their revenge was paid... those lil boys going through all that just because of one lil mistake.. n i like that it naver fail to make me cry each time i watch it.. i like how they were still looking at each others back despite going to different directions.. kinda make me miss my frens =D i still love them, but might not show it that much now..

n to think of what Father Bobby did for them.. it definitely means a lot.. n also the look on Michael's face when Carol told him that Shakes told them everything.. the pain in all their eyes watching Furguson on the stand as a witness.. brings back so much dark memories.. watch it, u just may like it..

not a monthly movie review.. just that i watch it last night n fell in love with it all over again..

RIP Troy Davis

2011-09-22T17:47:00.000+08:00

remember this post? Cornelius Dupree had, at least, the little luck of being freed from jail.. others, like Troy Davis, wasn't that lucky.. there are cases like these happening and somehow the system failed to end it.. policeman forcing witness to change statements or even confessing to murders.. it seem believable enough especially in the old days where racism is at a high.. my love goes out to the Davis families as well as the MacPhails.. if it just so happened that Troy is innocent, MacPhail's real killer may still be free...

Isn't It Ironic

2011-09-22T17:22:00.000+08:00

that the moment i updated my resume and went job hunting, the following week of work was very interesting for me... it kinda make me wanna be a journalist more hehehe so last thursday, the story about UBS broke on how one of it's trader was charged n caused $2.3billion of loss.. it kinda amazed u doesn't it how a single person could incur such a thing.. we're not talking bout millions here but rather billions.. so my task for the week was compiling info regarding this and made some slides.. also worked with the ORM team on doing a summary report n input some info's somewhat related to Market Risk aspect.. so the fun part was mainly reading various of articles regarding this n learning a lil bit about ETF (which is a bit too technical for me).. it also helps that i switch cubicle n now is sitting in front of the tv.. although the news are a lil recycled at times hehehe

so yeah, it was interesting to do sumthing different.. although i know this won't last, cuz there won't be much progress until the full investigation is done.. so in the meantime, i'll still have to do the other work, esp the benchmarking which hasn't progresed that much... *sigh* why la do i talk about work here =b anyway, today a little relax compared to the last 3 days, that's why i managed to sneak in a couple of post =D owh n i bet the whole Maybank staff is happy.. got our remaining bonus today weehoo woot woot (over) so for sure will go eat Japanese food with my family... just got to find a time to slot in cuz my parents have loads of wedding invitation.. Johor is uncertain but it'll be very nice if we manage to have a family vacation.. October seemed appropriate cuz school holidays hasn't started.. n also it's my dad's n my birthday in Rocktober hehehe but then things wasn't planned well, so we'll see if we can make it around january after skool holidays or something..

owh well, can't wait to get back home.. wanna hug my lil sis so tight muahahah (sorry la for kicking u last night) let's go shopping, i blanje k hehehehe

Quote of the Week

2011-09-22T09:52:00.000+08:00

"Rather fail with honour, than succeed by fraud" --- Sophocles

Delayed Updates

2011-09-22T09:42:00.001+08:00

hello, how y'all doing... been a quite busy week so far for me... didn't manage to post about our long weekend.. so here's a delayed entry.. went to 3 malls on friday, starting with Mid Valley where we sorta went job hunting.. woke up very early, then head out there and had breakfast at McD.. amazingly the line to GSC was already super long.. n the counters weren't even open yet... err havn't u guys heard of buying tix online?? =b who cares if they charge extra 50 cent per tix if that's what it takes to avoid the long queues hehehe anyway, went to the job fair later on a bit.. i saw Sean and Desmond from ME hehehe went back around noon i guess, then rest for a bit before heading out again around 3pm for lunch.. we went to Kenny Rogers cuz lil sis wanted to have Mac & Cheese which she saw Princesstard made.. and so, mac & cheese it is then..

Izad's mac & cheese

Yaya ordered some Ceaser Salad to share

As well as jack potatoes (d 1st pic was wrongly sent, she actually ordered the ones with, whut else, mac & cheese)

i ordered spaghetti n mum had sandwiches.. can't believe i didn't took pic of that hehehe owh well... walked a bit n went home... dat nite, yaya n i watched Johnny English =) fun fun fun.. a must-see movie

then on Saturday, watched some tv n mum said she was bored n wanted to go jalan2.. she suggested Golden Palm Tree so we agree, except papa off course =b so off we go.. it was already noon at that time n we reached there at 1pm.. it was so hot, the sun was shining right at us.. the heat was so strong u could feel it burning ur skin.. anyway, they capped the amount of visitors there to only 30ppl, which they had passes.. we just wanted to have lunch so they suggested the Perahu restaurant which was a lil outside the compound, but when we got there, they said that they close at 2pm.. by then it was already 1:30pm cuz of the Q&A with the guards n the walking.. so we decided to eat elsewhere, even though they say they can delay it till 2:30pm.. it just won't be dat fun n relaxing, knowing u have a time limit...

so went back to where we came from n d guards said they had 3 passes but will let us in nevertheless.. but then the ppl inside said that we had to book or make reservations to eat at their restaurant inside (stupid la tpt tu) so we ended up at their cafe instead, the Sepoi Sepoi Cafe.. for a resort that charges bout rm500++ a night, or in our case of 5pax, rm1500++ per night, it didn't really felt like a luxurious place.. service wasn't much special.. although we weren't residents there, we were still guest.. the food was ok, wasn't bad, but wasn't great either..

i had Prawn Mee... kuah pekat gler for a prawn mee..

yaya had Chicken Rice..

Mama had Wanton Noodle

Izad had Chicken Wings..... n French Toast

so yeah, from the outside, xdela nmpk best sgt tpt tu.. overrated perhaps? or maybe we need to stay there to really know... ntah la... moving on... went back home.. reached home around 5pm i guess... then slept =) keeping it short, since papa didn't follow us, we assumed he's hungry (but he never wants to admit, yet when we buy dinner, he keeps taking our food =b ) so izad wanted Brownies (which we were supposed to have on Friday but was already full) so we head on to Chillis OU, minus mum n big sis.. wasn't so hungry so didn't ordered too much heavy food..

papa had this Ribeye steak.. (yummy la plak bler dh mkn tu)

i ordered the Buffalo wings and some mashed potato

n izad ordered the Ice Cream Brownies..

we all shared the food so it was the perfect amount for us.. went home with a full stomach and sleepy eyes =D didn' do much on Sunday.. mostly we just chilled at home and more Sims!!! hehehe okies.. back to work, again...

Johnny English Review

2011-09-20T23:15:00.005+08:00

1st official movie review.. although i'll just keep this short cuz i'm so tired n for a start, it hasn't been the best day or week to blog..

i guess when it comes to Rowan Atkinson, you can't do no wrong... his character as Mr Bean is EPIC, n i'm sure it surpass any other character he takes.. even as Johnny English, you'd still get that sense of watching a Mr Bean show..

in terms of plot, it's somewhat the same with Get Smart (a lil spoiler there), but let's face it.. Steve Carrell could never beat the Bean =b funny moments everywhere.. it's really a stress reliever movie.. even the 1st sceen could crack you up to bits.. n it wasn't much.. just a shot of him standing in a pose for kung fu or something..

oklah, i dun really noe how to right movie reviews.. i kinda suck at it.. but what i can say is that i'll rate it 9/10... very fun movie to watch and it's one that could be watch repeatedly =D oklah, back to work...

Reminiscence

2011-09-15T11:59:00.001+08:00

baby, it's raining outside,

did you know that reminds me of you?

it was the moment you asked me to be your bride,

that moment when we decided to say I do,

Thank You

2011-09-15T10:35:00.001+08:00

for pointing out my flaws...

picked up my new glasses last tuesday.. was a little disappointed with my own eagerness.. "it's not you, it's me".. hehehehe whutever it is, will be trying to wear it during this extended weekend.. hope u have a good one..

Quote of the Week

2011-09-15T08:34:00.001+08:00

i'm re-naming this to Quote of the Week instead of Day since it's a weekly thing.... and each quote will be relevant to whut i go through in the week... this weeks' quote is.....

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power" --- Abraham Lincoln

You Know That I'm A Crazy Chick

2011-09-13T09:40:00.000+08:00

I do what i do when i feel like it....

not such a good start to the day.. train had technical difficulties and i came in at 8:10.. still early but a bit late from my usual schedule.. having to read what i read a few seconds ago didn't help too *sigh* anyway, my new glasses are ready and could be picked up yesterday but didn't have time so might go there later... in a few hours, i'm a brand new geek hehehe been simming social a lot now.. addicted to it cuz we've got goals to achieve hoyeahh nothing much going on.. same ol- same ol...

didn't feel like writing much about the 10th anniversary of Sept 11.. i'm sure lots can be read throughout the web.. more interesting stories from ppl who survived the attack and also those who were supposed to be in the 4 flights that crashed.. there were tv shows that even showed messeges from the passengers of the plane, which i yet to watch.. so yeah, nothing much to write about it except that i could still remember that night when we got a phone call from my dad's fren, asking him to tune into CNN (at that time i thought he said St. Anne)... n to our horror, they showed the clip of the 2nd plane crashing into the building.. n i think i've been following up on the news for like 2 weeks, before slowing down.. the news channel was constantly on (say no to MTV hahaha) n it was devastated indeed..

anyway, that's all for this morning... no other outro than to sing it... sing it with me y'all

and that's why i smile,
it's been a while,
since everyday and everything has felt this right,
and now,
you turn it all around,
and suddenly you're all i need,
the reason why i smile... =)

Ponders

2011-09-12T16:53:00.004+08:00

months passed and i kept asking why,

my heart hurts as i jabbed my eye,

why wasn't i chosen, how could it be,

what was i to do to have you pick me,

i was sideline as i watch others go,

down the path i dream of, as my pain slowly grow,

they told me to forget about it but i see them dwell,

on what could be their path, as i live in hell,

practice what you preach, i was once told,

but you can't walk the walk, you wouldn't let it roll,

i hear them argue, bout equality that was promised,

i can't help but feel your sense of dishonest,

i start to question my self-worth,

i questioned my belonging on this dreadful earth,

did i not meet the expectation, were they better,

u didn't even bat your eyes at me, didn't even breathe a letter,

i curled up in my emotions, that i carelessly hid,

but they didn't noticed, not even one bit,

i guess i should've shouted at them, told them how i feel,

bout the path i wanted, bout not having a deal,

month passed by and i still wonder why,

have u never come to me and look me in the eye,

mouthed the words i long to hear,

opening the doors while they stand near,

months passed by, it was never meant to be,

for me to be there, for you to set free.

Fade Away

2011-09-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

i had a beautiful dream one night,
everything about it felt right,
there was love in the air,
that pure love we share,
i was in your embrace,
was just staring at your face,
being in each others company,
that's our purpose, just where we should be,
such a beautiful dream that was,
nothing else matter just because,
the world was ours, ours alone,
everything else was left unkown,
i woke up from my dream, with a warm fuzzy feeling,
i smiled to myself while remembering everything,
within seconds, it got hard to remember,
everything within my grasp slips further,
my dream was slipping away, they started to fade,
slip into nothingness as if it was never made,
i had a wonderful dream one night,
everything about it felt right,
now i'm wishing it'll become reality,
here i'm wishing you would come back to me.

~~: flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end :~~

No Pics

2011-09-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

i know i said pinky promise, but i might not post raya pics here.. not that there were many taken anyway.. later i'll just might filter some (depends on my mood)..

but during lunch just now, my colleagues n i did managed to do a quick snap before heading up back to the office.. we're having our 'open bank' today hehehe

L-R: Sangeetha, me, Hani, Huda, Aja, Erni, Mira

Hope everyone had a good Raya..

Hoping For The Best

2011-09-09T11:09:00.000+08:00

i guess it's decided, i'm gonna update my resume, n go to the Job Street Career Fair next week with my sister, in hope of finding a new job.. otherwise, i guess i'll switch department.. i'm still in limbo about what i wanna do with my life.. career wise that it... i haven't really have a true passion, which would be awesome if i could turn it as a career...but i wanna find something i enjoy doing n most importantly UNDERSTAND, rather than doing something just for the sake of it... i'm already a zombie/robot, going thru day by day without really putting much thought in it.. i dun think i can survive being this for another year.. but we'll see.. i ain't no risk taker, n i rarely leave my comfort zone (not that i'm saying where i am is comforting).. but i think i need to man up and do something right for once.. i guess i havn't really put much thought to it cuz i've been day-dreaming of marrying a rich man n being a housewife n mother to my kids *pukes* muahahaha something like my mother.. but that ain't gonna happen girl, so now i need to take charge..

n i'm taking the fair as my 1st step... in the meantime, i might ask around from college frens n see what they're doing.. actually i do noe what some of them are doing, just keeping my options open.. i'm just a little nervous starting from square one.. i've never really been good at it.. if u ask me what kinda job i'm looking for, i havn't really got a clue.. i would enjoy something less technical.. something that i dun really have to pick my brain (dream big, girl).. other than the fact that i'm lazy (say whut?), i guess that havn't really been my strength from start... owh yes, in short, i'm stoopid =b i think i enjoy a job that deals with ppl.. i love Marcus Evans where i need to talk to ppl, it's just the lead research that i hate.. i'm thinking of being a volunteer, but not so sure how that could be a career..

i'm starting to have flashback where my aunt suggested me to be get a job working with old ppl, cuz she saw me taking care of my grandma when she had her operation.. i guess that would be good, but come to think of it, they were my grandma.. of course i'll take care of them cuz i love them.. but with strangers, not so sure.. maybe over the time i'll learn to love them.. but as for now, i'm still undecided on what to do.. i need help.. who do i go to for help??

so what kinda job is suitable for someone with a Marketing & Management degree but with a 1 year experience in Market Risk (which doesn't say much)

Quote of the Day

2011-09-08T08:57:00.000+08:00

With all the Petknode fiasco going on, i'd like to dedicate today's quote to the cats around the world...

"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated" --- Gandhi

Petknode Fiasco

2011-09-06T22:03:00.092+08:00

well this isn't really an up-to-date post... many have been posting about this and also tweeting about it.. i personally get the updates from Joe Lee's twitter.. long story short, there were two fucktards from Petknode who scammed ppl (yes, it's considered a scam) by running a 'cat hotel' but then abandoning them.. n we're not talking about 2 or 3 cats here.. we're talking bout 200++, and some are still missing.. a whole lot of activist, media n volunteers came together to help rescue the cats, who were left starving and in great trauma.. some were even dead when they got there... it's obvious that if u are offering service to take care of ppls cats, AND getting PAID FOR IT, you will have to do ur duties... using the excuse that u were shorthanded doesn't do u justice... why would u take in so many cats then?? this is off course based on their so-called apology in facebook here.. which i'm sure everyone know is only crap.. the only thing they are sorry for is that they got caught (it's cliche' but it's true)..

having family members to clean out the premises doesn't help u either.. and the absurd part is that they were stupid enough to report of breaking and entering, when the volunteers were on a rescue mission... i mean, if i trust u to take care of my cat and found that u just left it to die, i would want to have it back n i dun need ur fucking permission to go get it, regardless of where it is... even 'No Trespassing' has it's limit.. u don't walk by a private property, see it on fire and hearing screams n not do anything about it because there's a stupid sign that says No Trespassing.. fine, maybe it's not exactly the same case but anyway, u don't be idiots n think that u can get away with it...

the police ain't much help either from what i hear.. i try not to hate on d cops, cuz my grandfather was one.. but the cops on this case are ridiculous.. of course it's animals we're talking about here and not children, but lives are at stake here... u can't diss this off n assume it's a petty thing for ppl to abuse animals.. i thought by recent revelation bout how cruel ppl could be to animals, from the puppy who was forced to stand n thrown around, to the cats being hit n kicked at so many times, the authorities would realise how serious this is.. i'm not an expert bout who should be responsible in making sure that laws are enforced or what not, but i trust the reporters and NGOs does.. n when they say that no serious action was taken, i believe them... so hopefully, this would be the last case of this such to happen.. otherwise, it'll take the whole world to condemn us as a country and only then will the government react.. and by react, i mean menggelabah mak ayam...

anyway, the main reason why i wanted to post this (other than giving my two cent) is to have a bunch of links n info that might help out..

- Read here for more info on this (there's more links there) and also more pics of Petknode (as dark as i am, my heart ain't strong enough to post those pics here)
- The NGO actively helping out here and here...
- Contact the Department of Veterinary Services by emailing them at kp@dvs.gov.my or azizj@dvs.gov.my (send it to Dato' Dr Abdul Aziz Jamaluddin himself) or call/sms 019-5136055..
- Go harass Shahrul Azuwan and Yushairi, the owner of Petknode by calling or texting them at 012-6606423 (although not sure if they're abandoned that number too) and their recent address at H-16-05, Block 11, Tingkat 16, No 5, Flora Damansara, Jalan PJU 10/8, 47820 Damansara Damai.

That's all i have but i'd recommend following twitter for recent updates either Joe or KTAJ or nsurendrann (sorry no link but i was told he's the lawyer for this case) n if any of the links doesn't work, lemme noe cuz Maybank blocks several site so i can't test them out..

p/s: Najib (as in our PM) will be at Maybank this Friday 9 Sept 2011, for some perasmian logo n Raya Open house.. we should get him involve n have him aware of this case (not sure if he is) i don't noe if that info helps..

Freddie Mercury

2011-09-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

so the most talk-about thing this week (besides the Petknode fiasco) is Freddie's 65th Birthday... celebs are giving him shout out n all.. so i ain't a big Queen fan, it wasn't really my era.. but i did grow to love Bohemian Rhapsody superbly so much ever since my mum first mentioned it a long time ago... so at his supposed 65th birthday, Google did a doodle tribute to him, which is where i first heard Don't Stop Me Now, which is an equally awesome song...

so here, i'm putting the song here, just for the sake of it..

also, if u havn't heard of Bohemian Rhapsody before (which is one of my fave song to karok to), here it is...

hope u enjoy... cheers

Stand Tough

2011-09-06T11:56:00.001+08:00

I'm older and wiser, I've learnt a lot since then,
I'm no longer that little girl who got her heart broken,
I got up when i fall and had my head held high,
I'll no longer leave myself in the dark to die,
I love myself more now, more than you ever will,
I'll no longer screw around just for the thrill,
When I look in the mirror, I don't just love what I see,
But I'm even proud of myself cause I am finally free,
I'll no longer have to put up with your smothering,
And all your brainwashing about me being worth nothing,
In my rear view mirror that's where you'll stay,
Cause I'm older and wiser now, I'll no longer be your prey.

Fairytale

2011-09-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

Hello there my love,
How are you today?
I hope you're alright,
Hope everything is OK.
We haven't talk for awhile now have we?
There's just so much things to say,
From the shit i go through at work,
To those very rare lovely days.
But enough about me, I want to know about you,
How's that tummy of yours and your favourite sport too?
Did you miss me a bit while I was away?
Please tell me the truth, whatever the price I'll pay.
You seem thinner now, anything bothering you?
It's stress you say, I wonder what you're going through.
I hope you'll share things with me, make me your confidant,
Cause I care so much about you, no I'm not nonchalant.
I miss talking to you, and staring into your eyes,
I've bared my soul to you, even more that I realise.
Even after all that, there's one thing I still wish I could do,
To be in your embrace, knowing that you love me too.

Family Portrait

2011-09-05T16:55:00.001+08:00

a little girl in a lonely room,
suffocated by the noise, all in gloom,
voice rising, each louder than the other,
it's been the same through thick and thin weather.
a little girl with no shoulder to cry on,
if she knew her fate earlier, she'd wish she was never born,
to the outside world, they lived happily,
behind closed doors, they suffered miserably.
a little girl stuck between a broken marriage,
nothing can be saved, everything was damaged,
they're at it again, she prayed it will all end,
the heated arguments and shouting, she can no longer comprehend.
a littler girl hugging her old teddy bear for solace,
and imagined herself in a peaceful place,
that is filled with butterflies and double rainbows,
soft green grass between her toes.
a little girl, now back to reality,
breath held for a minute that felt like an eternity,
the door slammed open, and there stood a guy,
unshaven and dirty with a swollen eye.
a little girl watched him takes off his shoes,
let out a sigh while letting his tie loose,
a bottle fell out of his hand,
crashes to the floor on top of a pile of cans.
a little girl wants this all to stop,
she misses her parents a lot,
she don't see them that often, always staying hid,
she can't make them stop, after all, she's just a kid.
a little girl looking up at a portrait,
smiles on their faces, for once they looked great,
she tried to reminisce the old days when they were happy,
sadly she can't think of any.
a littler girl all torn up inside,
just waiting for her pain to subside,
laid her head down on a lonely pillow,
cried her eyes out in deep sorrow.

Thanx A Lot Party Pooper

2011-09-05T11:01:00.002+08:00

U have officially ruined it for us

ugghhh

Quote of the Day

2011-09-01T08:42:00.005+08:00

"iIf you see something and think 'someone should do something about that' , remember, you are someone" --- Unknown

It's The Long Weekend!! Woot!!

2011-08-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

owh yeah.. coming towards the end of today.. then the long weekend awaits.. weehoo raya plus merdeka plus chilling out.. so will definitely be occupied and might not update this for some time, what with the spring cleaning n cooking for raya.. so just wanna wish u all Selamat Hari Raya.. appologies if anything in here might offend u (well u deserved it =b )

to my family, hopefully we would get to spend quality time together.. looking forward to hangout with the kazens.. have a safe trip peeps for those travelling k...

see u soon right after raya with pics.. lots and lots of pics (pinkie promise hehehe)

In Arsene We Trust

2011-08-26T10:12:00.000+08:00

but do we?? i've started watching football since about 10 years ago.. back then, the big four still exist and Arsenal was dubbed as The Invincible.. back then, we had the likes of Thierry Henry, Robert Pires, Patrick Viera, Sol Campbell, Ljungberg, Ashley Cole (traitor + cheater), and off course, my all time favourite goalie, Jens Lehman (besides Oliver Kahn).. so ever since then, i've always been a gooner..

not sure whether it was a good move for me cuz they were at their peak, and things just started to go downhill then.. no trophy for 6 seasons, lack of experienced players in the club, players running away n not attracting new ones.. Arsenal have now been on the front cover of the sports page for all the wrong reasons.. critics have been saying how deep in denial Wenger is and most fans (or at least i do) think it's true.. yes, playing football, good football should be the main priority here, so techniques and strategy should all come together.. but for a club who was fierce and competitive, Arsenal now seems like a big joke..

latest i heard, they've been linked to Sneijder from Inter.. hopes this one comes true (although MU are also aiming him), cuz that could be a great addition to the now slumpy club...owh well, we'll see how this season unfolds...

match against MU this weekend, any chance of winning? *snickers*

Keyword Search

2011-08-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

so i'm sure most of u (if not all) know this.. what words do u type in to search for stuff... sometimes i like to view my search keywords for this blog.. there are normal things ppl type in, but also very odd and random stuff... latest that i have on the list is kodiok tee which i'm not too sure what it is... bet hey, if that word brings u to me, then i'm fine with it...

i also like checking out what words Google Keyword Tool chooses from the type of word we type.. i guess it all started when Kevjumba made a video about it.. apparently, ppl kept googling for words like "is Kevjumba gay" and "is Kevjumba a virgin".. so with the power of the internet (muahahaha) and millions of subscribers in youtube, he asked ppl to type "is Kevjumba a heterosexual bear wrestler" and guess what, if you type "is" in google, that's the keyword suggested by google.. amazing right.. that's the power of youtuber for u hehehe the day Osama bin Laden was reported shot, the keyword changed to "is Osama bin Laden dead" and when some fans noticed this, they made Kevin #1 again... talk about coolness =b

so, if u could choose a phrase that has ur name in it, and want ppl to google u based on that, what would it be?

Spring Cleaning in Summer

2011-08-25T11:00:00.000+08:00

well our bed and wardrobe arrived yesterday, n i felt sorry for not taking a leave n helped clean things.. it was such bad timing.. i though we would just have them delivered, and settle everything else over the weekend.. but boy was i wrong.. both rooms we're turned upside down n even the tv area is so messy...n now after coming back from work, we need to continue tiding things up after settling the food for break fast.. yeah i'm kinda making it a big deal than it is, but ii dun think my mind can fathom it.. so havn't been doing much cleaning at night.. i tend to get super sleepy at 11pm++.. n i mean super super sleepy.. i can barely keep my eyes open n yesterday, i think i kinda dozed off while trying out Sims Social on FB.. it doesn't rule compare to the original game, but it'll do...

so yeah, this weekend will be gearing up to clean the rest of the mess made, n also pumped out for the long weekend weehoo.. just can't wait.. spaghetti and baked pasta is on the menu, n i noe it's kinda odd for raya, but can't wait to eat it.. off course the usual nasi impit, ketupat, rendang ayam and sambal ketupat will still be there.. those are a must.. but instead of having nasi lemak or mee rebus for the other menu, we're opting for this..

anyway, i'm trying to add labels in my post.. no that much tho, cuz i can't really categorised the posts i have.. i'm basically just blabbering n ranting a lot, sorta like what i'm doing now.. so putting labels on this kinda post, doesn't really narrow things down hehehe but i'm making labels for post that have poems, quotes, movie or food review etc.. just check the list on the left here.. it's somewhere there.. not that any of u would be needing it anyway =b i'm thinking of writing more stuff.. i can't write poems at the top of my head, but i'll try..i currently have My 1st Country Sound stuck in my head.. it's kinda like the 1st song i wrote cuz i had a melody to it.. who knows, i could be the next Taylor Swift (yeah right).. i'm also thinking of bringing Amethyst back on more often, cuz i think i'm losing touch of her.. her angst and despair, how i miss them so much.. but we'll just see.. i never follow through my plan =b

let's get prepared for the holidays weehoo

Quote of the Day

2011-08-25T09:54:00.001+08:00

"Try not to be a man of success, but a man of value" --- Albert Einstein

In A Perfect World - Part 4

2011-08-23T15:32:00.000+08:00

Days come and go and finally the day arrive for them to tag along the Lavere to Australia.. a total of 5 kids were chosen including Mya so she considered herself very lucky indeed..the previous day, everyone helped them packed.. they didn’t have a lot, so they took almost everything with them… Mya felt sorry for those who were left behind but Mrs Stewart assures them that this won’t be the last time a trip like this will happen so they will have their chance eventually… they woke up early that morning and waited for the Lavere.. a big van came instead of the usual blue car to fit them all.. they loaded their luggage to the van and hugged everyone at the orphanage, promising to do their best to buy gifts for everyone.. they didn’t have much money on them, only those that they have saved previously, but the Lavere said not to worry as everything has been arranged for them like food and a place to stay..

It was the first time Mya and the other kids board a plane so they were very excited.. Mya was also nervous about being so high in the sky.. what if they fall? The plane looks very big and heavy.. how can it float then? But after Mrs Lavere assures them that everything was gonna be fine, Mya felt better.. it was a long flight.. it felt like they were flying forever.. they liked watching outside the window and seeing the world from the sky.. everything looked so small.. then when they flew across the ocean, there was nothing much to see… meal was served and they tasted great.. Mya wasn’t sure if she could have more when she finished hers, but since no one else was having a 2nd round, she didn’t have hers.. Mya wasn’t sure when she started dozing off.. she was awoken to the sound of ppl chattering, and saw land through the window.. the signal to buckle up was on, which indicates that they were about to land… this is it, they’re almost there..

The plane landed and Mya held her breath.. the plane was fast on its track and eventually came to a stop.. ppl started to get up and took their luggage out of the compartment above.. Mya just sat at her seat with the others and waited till the Lavere gave the signal.. they then disembarked the plane n walked through the airport.. all kids were excited and nervous at the same time… by the end of the airport, they saw a man standing with a sign held up with the name Lavere on it.. at first, Mya thought they were famous, only then she learn that he was their driver to send them to their place.. Australia was awesome.. everything was all colourful with bright colours unlike the gloomy London they lived.. birds chirping away, butterflies everywhere, it was indeed summer here…

They reached their hotels and settled in.. that was the first time Mya stayed in a hotel.. they had to share the beds but Mya didn’t mind.. they had a magnificent view facing the ocean.. it was big and blue.. the toilets were all clean and white.. everything was more than what Mya had expected.. Mya’s tummy started growling, when Mrs Lavere told them to make sure everything was in order before they went down for lunch.. they stepped in the dining area and Mya was amazed at the amount of food they had there.. Mya was told that it was a buffet and she could eat anything she wanted but also bear in mind not to waste the food.. they had a feast.. if bacons or roast chicken was considered lucky to have, Mya doesn’t have a word to express this day… it was beyond awesomeness.. they had bread, soup, then chicken, pasta, lamb, vegetables.. and after that, they had ice cream and cakes.. lots of ice cream and cakes.. Mya never wanted this day to end..

But lunch wasn’t just all about food.. they had a briefing on their activities for their whole trip.. a lot has been arranged for them and it was not just all about fun.. Mrs Lavere said there was a lot to be learn from this special trip.. Mya was eager to learn more.. she like learning outside the classroom very much.. among the activities that will be held is, as promise, a trip to the zoo, where they will learn more about animals.. they will also visit several museums and learn about cultures in other countries.. the list was very long and included ceremonies where other kids from other orphanage will be joining them for a special event.. Mya knew this was going to be a hectic time for her, but she was looking forward to this very much… Mya knew that she would have to tell everything to the kids and teachers back home.. and to make sure she remembers every details, and wouldn’t miss a thing, she took along with her a small book to write in.. it was her very own journal that she’ll carry with her everywhere she goes, and write down things they do and where they go.. hopefully, the book will be enough to fit in all the stories that needs to be told from all the planned activitie..

to be continued.....

Let's Make This Fun

2011-08-23T11:44:00.001+08:00

how much fun? not quite sure... i guess it is a norm fact that this blog ain't that good.. i mean it's good for me cuz i can write anything i want, but it ain't good reading for others.. cuz it's all about me, me and more me with me blabbering n me ranting.. so peeps reading will be like "god, this girl is obnoxious and so full or herself".. hahahaha cuz i am, i won't deny it.. but just for pete's sake, i wanna tweak things up a little... i guess taking lessons or ques from vloggers, i think imma have a theme or some sort.. not a blog as a whole cuz i think that keeps changing.. i used to be so dark, with my dark thoughts, but i've been writing from a different angle so might let that be for a while... i'm thinking more between the lines of themes for days or dates..

for starters, i think i'll have quote days, where i quote something (either from random conversation, things i read, known or unknown) every Thursday.. so every week i'll have a quote that i think makes sense to me the most or caught my attention the most for that week... then maybe movie reviews every 20th of the month (tho i'm not sure how often i watch movies).. or maybe i'll combine it with books reviews... so yeah, movie or books review every 20th of the month... that's all i could think of right now.. maybe i'll toss in something best pics of the month or story of the month... i don't know.. we'll see.. i'm not even sure if this plan falls through but i'll try my best...

what's good to read?

Tiring Weekend

2011-08-22T13:29:00.001+08:00

one week down, another week to go till we celebrate raya.. gees, time does fly by fast... so did a lot of chores over the weekend ( a lot meh?) folded the clean laundries n my sisters did the kitchen.. then went out with mum n big sis to shah alam to shop for our tudung raya... didn't hang there a lot, cuz it was too crowded n i literally can barely breathe.. got what we wanted, waited till the rain cooled down then went home.. we had sup tulang, super yummy, but unfortunately, i cooked less rice so it was just enough for us..

on sunday was more tiring.. woke up to the sound of an incoming text from my mum, asking us to get up n get ready for a ceramah at the mosque.. sad thing that happened, was it was the 1st time i ever heard an ustaz saying that this would be the last time he'll accept an invitation to the mosque due to the amount of ppl turning up was too small for a place in kl, and also he was slightly offended by the ppl talking behind while he was giving his ceramah in front.. talk about respect, i always hated those ppl who constantly talk at the back, disrespecting not just others who are trying to hear, but also the ustaz himself.. if u ani't gon' listen, then don't come.. anyway, moving on.. we planned to buy a new bed n wardrobe ever since a few months ago.. n we kept delaying it, so we (or rather my lil sis) decided that we had to buy them now or we won't be buying it ever...

so we went to IKEA in our baju kurung (i feel like Orked) and it was packed (well what do u expect right) picked out our bed and wardrobe which, by the way, is humongous.. so they will be delivering it this wednesday which gives us sometime to clean our rooms (again).. so got back n almost immediately started to disband our old beds and cleaned up the room.. so one room is almost done.. we just need to tear out the old wardrobe which we havn't really figure out how to do.. thought of asking the delivery guys, but they might be occupied with other deliveries.. anyway, we'll just see how things goes. excited to get our new bed and wardrobe weehoo

had Canadian Pizza for our break fast.. left the house aroun 6:40 to buy the pizzas and also my dad's roti nan.. made it home just in time with about 5 mins to spare before the azan.. ordered the wrong chickn but it was still super yummy.. so might just buy garlic bread n chicken next time.. i think the pizza can hold...

then that night, skipped terawih and watched The Voice, which was an amazing show (not just cuz Xtina was in it hehehe) the concept itself is great where ppl are judged by their vocal wholely.. there's no such thing as "u have the complete package", it's just vocals, vocals, and more vocals.. off course after this blind auditions, the other aspect counts.. but for starters, the voice is what matters the most (eceh, poyo plak).. i know the show have already ended in the US, but i'm still rooting for team Xtina hehehe

anyway, a week to go till raya... we'll see how that goes..hopefully i won't gain too much weight from eating.. *sigh* every year a new measurement =b looking forward to hang out with the kazens..

what happened to Mya?

I Love My Mum's Cooking

2011-08-19T16:03:00.001+08:00

well who doesn't right? got home to the delicious scent of chicken being roast in our oven.. we had chicken rice for our break fast.. my mum cooked extra so managed to have more for sahur.. wee hoo...

my very own chicken rice.. it's so yummy i could still taste it hehehe

our whole meal.. the soup, chicken, salad, souces for extra taste and also some meat.. the rice ain't in the pic..

the yummy chicken.. u're welcome to drool..

staying healthy by eating more salad?

not sure what we'll be having later on.. still craving for the carbonarra from Delicious.. i guess i'll just have to wait till later then...

sigh

2011-08-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

"it's like watching u're crush marrying ur best fren"

do i weep?
or do i smile?
should i be happy for u?
even just for a while.
my heart aches,
my head hurts,
i can't take it,
and my tears burst.
i wiped it away,
and kept being strong,
swollen eyes,
for a nite long.
i leaned my head to her,
a shoulder to cry on,
silenced in the air,
waiting till dawn.
nothing can be done,
except to accept fate,
nothing can ease,
this feeling of frustrate.
i screamed my lungs out,
locked myself in my room,
took the gun and put it to my head,
BANG!! i was doomed.

Cesc Fabregas

2011-08-18T10:15:00.001+08:00

i noe this is outdated and it's been days, but finally it's a done deal.. although everyone knew this will happend eventually, it's just a matter of time..

so Fabregas was playing under the Barcelona academy (not sure what's the real name of it) during his youth along with the likes of Lionel Messi n Gerard Pique... being the great midfielder that he is, he was bought by Arsene Wenger to play for Arsenal.. he bacame one of the youngest captain for Arsenal and been playing for the club about 8 years..

during the last 3 years there, he has been hinting about returning to his homeground and play for Barcelona.. and who doesn't wanna play for them.. they have the become one of the best team in this generation.. more than half the team who played for Spain during the recent World Cup (which they won) was playing for Barcelona, so they were favourites from the start.. so Barcelona have been making offer to Arsenal to buy back Fabregas.. being the key person of the club, where Wenger shaped the team based on Fabregas, he wasn't ready to let him go...

seasons passed and Arsenal hasn't won a trophy for 6 years already... that and watching barcelona excelling in almost all league definitely made his intention stronger.. he told Wenger about it while Barcelona also doing their part with their offer, but still, Wenger said no... imagine staying in a club that u like but it's not where u wanna be, n having ur coach denied ur desire.. eventually, Arsenal accepted Barcelona's offer and Fabregas was finally home where he feels like he belongs more..

Barcelona could have any player there is, but all they wanted was Fabregas.. so as Fabregas made his way to Nou camp wearing 4 on his jersey, reserved just for him, all other eyes watch him with envy cuz being in Barcelona is what every other player wanted too..

Fabregas has only been with Barcelona for one day and he already has a trophy.. now Arsenal will learn to play without Fabregas.. how bad will it be?

In A Perfect World - Part 3

2011-08-17T14:38:00.002+08:00

The Lavere have become the hottest topic at the orphanage.. each kid was anxious to know when will they return or who will they adopt.. then, the day finally came when the Lavere visited the orphanage again.. as always, the kids were in their best behaviour even while the Lavere were in Mrs Stewart's office.. the kids heard Mrs Stewart opened her door and walked towards the hall... after the last incident, Mya didn't wait near the office to eavedrop.. instead, she played outside with some other girls while Jenna gets the updates.. Jenna is the 'reporter' of the orphanage.. she knows everything that's going on around..Mya heard her yelled alert before glancing behind.. Mrs Stewart walked up to Mya and asked her to follow her to her office.. this made Mya very nervous cuz she knew the Lavere were in there.. throughout living there, Mya was called to the office about 6 times already.. she counted.. but usually, she would be there with the couple and with some other kids.. only twice was she there alone, and all they did was talked.. Mya would get excited after meeting them n got ready to pack her bags, but no one came to her to tell her that she was being adopted.. Mya wasn't putting high hope this time around too.. she justt followed Mrs Stewart while the rest eyed her...

In the office, they had their usual conversation.. Mya talked about herself and the Lavere told her about their lives.. then Mrs Lavere asked Mya whether she's been to Australia or not and Mya shook her head.. Mrs Lavere then lay down a paper in front of Mya and told her that Ms Fisher gave it to her from her last visit.. Mya looked at the sheet and noticed that it was one of her paper she wrote about animals from different countries and how kangaroos and koalas could often be seen only in Australia.. Mya didn't really know whether these were true, she just read it in a book somewhere sometime ago.. then Mr Lavere asked Mya whether she wanted to go to Australia to see the kangaroos and koalas.. Mya said she loved to because she was tired of seeing birds and cats and mice, which were about the only animals there in the city.. a few minutes later, Mya left the office and she was quickly swarmed by the others.. they asked her questions about the Lavere and what they talked about.. Mya told them everything, well almost everything.. she left out the part where Mr Lavere asked her that question.. she thought of not letting the others too down or jealous even tho Mya knew that that wasn't a done deal.. that it was still uncertain whether she will be adopted or not, but she still had hope..

That night, Mya was more quiet than usual.. she felt uneasy somehow, something was bothering her mind... the other kids was playing dress up when there was a knock at the door.. it was Mrs Stewart and she wanted to have a talk with Mya.. she started to have butterflies in her stomach and her knees were shivering.. they reached the office and sat down quietly.. Mrs Stewart started by asking Mya’s opinion on the Lavere.. she told them how she fine them well dressed with nice sets of teeth.. Mrs Stewart than laughed a little and proceeded to the point.. she told Mya that the Lavere are not looking to fully adopt someone as they are not yet prepared.. Mr Lavere worked for a big company and his job was to look for kids to tag along with them on a corporate function that involve a lot of travelling.. she told Mya that they considered of taking Mya along but was not sure how Mya will feel if she knew she was not being adopted.. Mya said she would love to go on a trip with the Lavere so that she could write better stories.. Mrs Stewart then told Mya that she won’t be the only one going as a couple of other kids will be joining her too.. Mya didn’t mind since it’ll mean that she’ll have her frens with her along the way, although she did wonder why she was the only one being called.. she asked Mrs Stewart about it n she said that they wanted one of the kids to break the news to the others and by tripping in front of the doy made Mya the chosen one.. Mya left the office with a wide smile.. Mrs Stewart said that they’ll be following the Lavere next week although the names are yet to be finalized..

to be continued...